loved by the King

2009-07-02T20:22:00.002+08:00

i've just been thinking, every child of God has his or her unique adventure with the Father. God accompanies some on rollercoaster rides and some others on a peaceful float in calm waters. some may be thrown off when the ride gets a little rougher and more violent than usual while others may well get a wee bit too comfy bobbing up and down in such an oscillatory motion that they somehow end up drifting off course and risk being carried away by a sudden lift of the wind and waves and eventually get washed down to the depths by a waterfall. i guess this is a very real threat to every child of God and to avoid tumbling down to the ruins we'll have to learn to stop and smell the flowers every now and then and thank God for His blessings even in every fluffy cloud in the sky of blue painted by Him just for us to marvel at.

"16 Then those who feared the LORD talked with each other, and the LORD listened and heard. A scroll of remembrance was written in his presence concerning those who feared the LORD and honored his name.

17 "They will be mine," says the LORD Almighty, "in the day when I make up my treasured possession. [a] I will spare them, just as in compassion a man spares his son who serves him."

(Mal 3:16-17)

drawing up our scroll of remembrance would certainly enable us to bathe once again in the river of gratitude and thankfulness and subsequently, to clothe ourselves with a fresh change of attitude and thus aptitude in this journey. drawing up a scroll of remembrance is easy, i think. it's the first step that's the tricky part; be it having the desire to do so or simply just willing yourself to get down to doing it. i was just talking to jacob two days ago and he said something that reallyreally spoke volumes of a faith marked by maturity. he said something along the lines of thinking about why it was hard to see how good God is in his life. he then concluded that it didn't matter that he doesn't have out-of-the-world testimonies to share like others may, his best testimony would be that he's a sinner saved by grace and he has a living relationship with a living God. yeap. what a testimony indeed:) it's been on my mind since then and it really brings me back to where it really matters. and because of this testimony i'm all imbued with a deep-rooted joy that makes me smile to myself even when i'm walking. well actually it'd be better to think of it as i'm smiling to God hee! but thanks for never failing to inspire me, jacob, i'm real glad to be in the same family of God as you! :D

the Father's love in 3P's :)

2009-05-24T22:09:00.002+08:00

after having frivolously squandered the past weeks in self-pity and depression and along the way liberally spending a crazy lot on good(which actually means awfully calorific and fattening) food i'm trying to get back on track without much success. when i lament about God giving me the same test over and over again and how it's killing me, church mates reply that it's because i never learn. here are a few who can see so clearly from the outside. indeed, i never learn, do i? yet i thank God for these messengers and also for a spirit who tells me that i gotta have a sense of urgency in resolving my issues. yeap so with this same spirit i shall get up and get back.

all this while that i've been turning to food for comfort, though it may seem somehow that i'm mistakenly seeking refuge from the world, yet i sense a gratitude deep within my heart towards God, for always providing me with what He knows will cheer me up. in my case of course, i get to binge on my favourite delights- sweets and pastries and virtually everything you can find at a patisserie. i don't suppose some people can actually afford that which may seem to be a luxury. so YAY praise God. an extra dose of sweetness comes from knowing that even in trying times, God's comforting little nuggets of love are still delivered all the way:) i'd like to think that the privilege of being able to afford yummies are God's way of loving me- according to what i like and what i'm like- God loves us PERSONALLY:)

and for all the times that i've prolly annoyed God with my incessant complains and even accusations(and worse:( ), He's never once picked me up by the scruff of my neck and shook me hard to knock some sense in. no, He's always been generously patient. for we beat on His chest from within the circle of His arms. the Father's love goes this far. God loves us PASSIONATELY:)

then comes the hope that leads me on and sustains my walk- God's promises. i just happened to see one of my favourite verses on the cover of my organiser that i've scrawled on some months ago and conveniently forgot about:(
"You will go out in joy
and be led forth in peace;
the mountains and hills
will burst into song before you,
and all the trees of the field
will clap their hands."
(isaiah 55:12)
and with God's promises come all strength and sustenance and every goodness in His spirit's power. God loves us POWERFULLY:)

so that's my God with His love in 3P's and actually a whole lot more! but yeah i hope this read will bless you!:) Jesus loves you:)

2009-05-16T23:59:00.003+08:00

i attended youth service today since i couldn't attend uni-ya camp and thank God i went for service; church today was truly a tent of meeting with God with the holy spirit moving greatly among us all, pulsating through our veins with every beat of our hearts in rhythm with the will of God.

sanctification was but one of God's blessings to me today at church- liberation from a tainted past in various aspects of life felt...well..free...and more than that, the comfort in knowing that God had just granted me yet another chance to start on a clean slate again simply blows me away. pastor michael told us that no matter which rung of the spiritual ladder we're at, or whether we're even on it; however far we may be from God, He will still take us back and make us part of His. it's all part of His promise that will never fail. thank God i serve a merciful God who doesn't condemn for good and who's a God of second chances. as the sermon carried on about revival and God's army, that is, the church, something stirred within my spirit that gave me such an overwhelming response to the Word of God preached today. i was reminded of the dreams i had for my God, those times when i told Him "yes Daddy i wanna do this for You..i wanna do that for Your glory...". i was greatly moved to respond to His call to join His army, i wanted to begin to use my God-blessed gifts and talents for His purposes. oh how i swelled then with the consuming desire to go to the ends of the earth at the slightest of God's command...really..yet it was barely an hour after church that i began to sulk over a certain something that God had withheld from me. and the more i thought about it the more frustrated and annoyed i got until slowly, the bitterness began eating me up inside that i suppose the light of Christ faded from me on the outside, not that i think i ever really shone the light of Christ well in my life anyway:/ but yeah it was that bad. and it's funny isn't it? the transience of it all...that thing called faith, one minute you're burning with it and the next it's gone with the wind. like poof! and there it goes. but then again it occurred that me that that ephemeral impulse or instantaneous reaction/response to a certain impetus is nowhere near what faith is exactly. true faith doesn't fluctuate with the ups and downs of life; it's an independent, uni-directional variable that increases with the depth of our relationship with our Savior(ooo that sounded like math and physics, i'm a GENIUS hee!).

yeap and i wanna have faith, not just that annoying momentary impulse that loses itself somehow or other. so God, i just wanna tell You that i will still love You, Lord. i trust in Your wisdom and judgment, that out of love for me, You withhold what i want to give me what i need. and God i know that You make no mistakes so i will trust in Your plans. yeah well i may hate it a bit for now heh, but i will still love You because i know You're faithful. You told me some time ago that trials and testings are what keep me close to You. sometimes, well actually most of the time, God, i really really hate it when You put me through the fire. but now i think i can safely say that no matter how much i may hate the trials and challenges You put in my way, regardless of how much i may grumble and complain(You know best how much i really do hahah), i will still love You, i will still follow You, i will still turn to You. so keep me close to You Lord. help me keep my eyes on Jesus to keep my feet from stumbling. thank You Daddy. i love You. Amen.

to Daddy with love:)

2009-02-11T00:03:00.005+08:00

to me, psalms are well-written in that they convey accurately the very emotions we humans feel at times, capturing the very essence of such a flood of feelings in particular moments, in particular experiences. it's precisely because they're written so charged with emotions that everyone is able to relate to and identify with the involved psychology and mentality. in short, the guys who wrote them were, to put it curtly and crudely, EMO. (oops, pardon me:/)

i wrote a little something myself a while back. not because i was particularly emo, (i refuse to label myself an emokid! hahahah) but because poetry-writing is somewhat an outlet for venting certain pent-up emotional frustrations? much more than that, it's my way of drawing up a "Scroll of Remembrance" to remind myself of the Lord's goodness at times when i least feel it; because feelings aren't accurate mostly, what counts are the facts- God's word! UH well something like that! anyways here's it! there are bound to be errors and unsatisfactory parts but i pray it speaks to your heart when you read it! :))

Dear Daddy

Dear Daddy I just want to thank You
For all You’ve been to me-
My Savior, Redeemer, Father and Friend,
Who was, is and ever will be.

Thank You for forgiving my sins,
Though multitudes they cover.
And for having patience when tantrums I throw,
Without thought for Your feelings, my Father.

Thank You for not turning from me,
Even when I run and hide from You;
For You so knew that if You do,
Through sin’s trap I’d surely fall through.

Thank You for Your love that reaches the ends of the earth,
That finds me however far I stray;
For a love that neither sleeps nor slumbers,
That protects and blesses- my guide and stay.

O Lord I thank You for all Your provisions;
You know best what I need.
Granting what I require, not desire,
I pray Your will and word I’ll always heed.

Thank You for Your grace and mercy,
That first saved me and now keep me.
That put and tide me through tests and trials
All because You love me.

Thank You Daddy for Your surpassing understanding-
You always know exactly how I feel.
You laugh with me and weep with me
For what pains me pains You too.

Thank You dear Lord for being to me,
So loving, kind, faithful and true.
For being so special, incomparable, irreplaceable
Because You’re indescribable and none compares to You

Daddy I thank You for Your patience-
I’m never too slow for You.
You know just how long I take sometimes
But just for me You keep the skies blue.

God I thank You for being my justification-
That in Jesus I am made righteous before You
For being also my justice and Judge,
Who repays accordingly when the time comes to.

Dear Daddy I just want to thank You
For all You’ve been to me-
My everything, my all in all,

Who was, is and ever will be.

and...as the title says, tis to Daddy with love. truckloads of it<33

dearly loved by the King

2009-01-28T14:26:00.002+08:00

thank you all who are raining smses of care and concern on me:)) thank God for yall butbutbut reallyreally, i'm fine:) even if i ain't i will be! i mean, God won't let me fall so easily come on! yeap and don't worry cus i won't slit my wrists, overdose myself with sleeping pills, get myself run over by a cabby, drink detergent etc. HELLOOOO i'm like WANCHIEN. you know, WANCHIENNNN hahah. whatever the case, God's got me so i'll just run along all the same! no worries mann!!
i'm in this with Jesus. and knowing just how He loves me is way more than enough comfort:)) YAAY check this out man - i'm dearly loved by The King of kings wooohooo!!!!

ah and to those who may be going thru a trying time, just wanna say hang in there! cus we struggle powerfully from victory! and God sees each tear that falls, He hears you when you call, Jesus weeps with you for what pains you pains Him too, what saddens you saddens Him too. so take heart in such an everlasting companionship, there's none like it in the world that can so fill a heart with hope and joy:)

TODAY is the day!!

2009-01-27T15:40:00.002+08:00

"Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past." (isa 43"18)

"This is the day the LORD has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it." (psa 118:24)

"I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus." (phi 3:14)

these verses demonstrate God's call to us to CONTINUALLY leave our past behind and live in the present, looking towards the future. and boy am i grateful to have a God, a heavenly Father who doesn't bring up my shameful, sinful past to show me how great His redeeming grace is. instead, He tells me to dump it all!! and He tells me His love for me is eternal and He'll be my backing all of my days on earth -
"For great is your love, reaching to the heavens; your faithfulness reaches to the skies." (psa 57:10)
and He tells me to hold on however tough it may be, cus He's with me every step of the way, picking me up and placing me upon His shoulders; carrying me when my knees give way. the story "Footprints" really captures the essence of this demonstration:)) and He lifts us above it all:) thank You Daddy. hallelujah.

i pray my eyes will look unto You always, seeing only Your beauty, majesty and magnificence. yeap and i pray i won't claim to be too busy to spend time with You, to just sit by Your throne in Your soothing and reassuring presence and let You love me as You want to. may i wait on You in song and declaration as i wait for You and let Your joy be my strength. in Jesus' name, AMEN.

2009-01-23T20:57:00.000+08:00

Finding Purpose and Meaning

Article by Tom Gilbert — © January, 2009

Much of life is spent on seeking purpose and meaning. For me, the process seems to have intensified with age.We all want to find meaning and purpose. But when we begin to realize that the very living of our lives is part of that purpose we start to recognize some other valuable things. For one, I've discovered that I can create plans, visualize the future, prepare in depth - but I'm not in control. So I have to look at what I'm doing. It is the self examined life that yields benefit. However, not just self examination so that I know myself better. It is important to know who I am, what I believe and where I've been. But I can't predict the future and I need to learn that everything...everything... is ultimately a gift.What I've discovered is that finding purpose and meaning in life is just the beginning. The journey continues and living by letting go to the guiding light of God is the right way to approach each day and moment.So often the way to better understand something requires that I first figure out what it is not. My purpose in life is not whatever my "job" or work occupation might be. Work is important and necessary. Work is good. The fruits of our labor add to our appreciation of life and are the byproducts of living our purpose. It is often frustrating to be in a job or work situation solely because it is the means to pay the bills and provide basic necessities. But my identity and self worth should not be measured just by what job I hold.

Hard Lessons

This has been a hard lesson. For years I've been wrapped up in whatever my job was. I have a born desire to do things that are interesting, fun and part of my natural abilities. However, another aspect of the purpose of life — a very essential aspect — is to keep growing. To grow I must be stretched. I must leave the comfort of what I know and can do and strive to do something new, different and ideally better. That's often frightening. Fear can keep me from leaving that comfort zone, but fear also holds me back from growth.To discover the gifts God has given us we must keep exploring, learning and trying new things. Sometimes this is hard because we don't know where it is leading. I sometimes wonder if it is wasted effort. None of it is truly wasted, but I usually want to take the shortcuts. And I worry I’ll miss out on opportunities because I was “climbing a ladder on the wrong wall”. Of course, God takes all our effort, all our searching, even our misdirection, and brings good from it. Learning from past mistakes is using the brains God gave us. Discerning the difference between not going down a path that has proven futile and persevering on a path because it has not yet yielded results can be tricky. Sitting quietly in prayer helps. Also being honest with ourselves. If I start to move in a direction only because it is comforting and pleasing and holds the illusion of security then I must pause and reconsider.

Commitment

There comes a time for all of us when we have a pretty good grasp of our purpose and we see how things have connected to provide meaning for us. Then comes an important next step — commitment. I decide "this I will do". I pledge to continue. I won't stop because it gets too hard. My only reason to not continue in the direction that has been revealed as the next right course is if God reveals a different way. An example that comes to mind is St. Paul and his missionary efforts. In the Acts of the Apostles (Acts 16:6-8) he wants to carry the Gospel message to a part of Asia. Scripture says the Holy Spirit prevented him from going that way. So he had to change course. His intentions were good; his motives were good. But it was not where God wanted him to go.At times I feel like I don't know which direction to head. For the reasons already stated I can get confused or misdirected. I need the "compass" of the Spirit to point me in the right direction. I also need the strength and courage to go where God is leading when I don't want to go. Fear holds me back. Fear may be expressed in doubt, anger, frustration, worry, resentment or despair. When these things assault me I need to pray that God will lift me up. Remember, with God all things are possible.

Discipline

From commitment must come discipline. An athlete must train, and continue to train, to do those things that will strengthen and improve performance. Most athletes have a training program and they usually have a coach or trainer. In my endeavors I must have discipline. I don't need to live in expectations of my results for the events I am "training for". But I do need to stick with my training, or when I slack off to have the dedication and willingness to resume. I should rely on the expertise of others and to let my “coaches” direct me.One of my greatest desires is to do meaningful and useful work for God's purpose. I believe God's purpose is for all of us - all His children - to grow in love and service to each other. This brings glory to God and to creation. When I am in sync with God's purpose for me my work should flow. It may still be difficult, but if it is the work I am called to do it should come to me relatively easy because it will use the talents I have been gifted with.Finding purpose and meaning, committing to it with discipline and effort and going with the flow will result in our usefulness. Go for it – it is part of God's Divine Plan.

taken from www.livingthesolution.com

hallelujah:)

that stumbling block

2008-12-28T12:42:00.002+08:00

Sin Of Pride - The Sin of Sins

The sin of pride is the sin of sins. It was this sin, we're told, which transformed Lucifer, an anointed cherub of God, the very "seal of perfection, full of wisdom and perfect in beauty,"1 into Satan, the devil, the father of lies, the one for whom Hell itself was created.2 We're warned to guard our hearts against pride lest we too "fall into the same condemnation as the devil."3 It was the sin of pride which first led Eve to eat of the forbidden fruit. In Genesis we read, "Then the serpent said to the woman, 'You will not surely die. For God knows that in the day you eat of it your eyes will be opened, and you will be like God, knowing good and evil.' So when the woman saw that the tree was good for food, that it was pleasant to the eyes, and a tree desirable to make one wise, she took of its fruit and ate. She also gave to her husband with her, and he ate."4 And who do you think was that serpent of old who first introduced Eve to this sin of pride? It was none other than the devil himself,5 eager to share his condemnation with others. St. Augustine of Hippo (354-430 A.D.) wrote, "'Pride is the commencement of all sin'6 because it was this which overthrew the devil, from whom arose the origin of sin; and afterwards, when his malice and envy pursued man, who was yet standing in his uprightness, it subverted him in the same way in which he himself fell. For the serpent, in fact, only sought for the door of pride whereby to enter when he said, 'Ye shall be as gods.'"

Sin Of Pride - Preoccupation With Self
The sin of pride is a preoccupation with self. It is thus very fitting that the middle letter in the word is "i." Pride is all about "me, myself, and I." So even as the word "pride" is centered upon an "i," the sin itself is also centered upon "I." We read of Lucifer's fall, "How you are fallen from heaven, O Lucifer, son of the morning! How you are cut down to the ground, you who weakened the nations! For you have said in your heart: 'I will ascend into heaven, I will exalt my throne above the stars of God; I will also sit on the mount of the congregation on the farthest sides of the north; I will ascend above the heights of the clouds, I will be like the Most High.' Yet you shall be brought down to Sheol, to the lowest depths of the Pit."8 Satan's enmity against God began with "I". And so it is with us. If you are preoccupied with yourself, you are suffering from the sin of pride. One way to determine whether or not you are preoccupied with yourself is to evaluate your motives. Take the pursuit knowledge for example. If you study hard because that's what the Lord wants you to do and you're being obedient to Him, that's good. That's obedience to God. Or if you study hard because you want to become a teacher so that you can edify others and help them to grow, that's good too. That's love for others. But if you study hard solely to amass knowledge for yourself, just so you can say that you know more than everyone else, that's bad! Your focus is upon yourself and your own glory. That's preoccupation with self. That's pride. And if this is the case for you, not only are you already suffering from pride, you're setting yourself up to be totally consumed by it! The Apostle Paul wasn't joking when he said, "Knowledge puffs up, but love edifies."9 And anyone who is ever been there will tell you, knowledge for the wrong reasons (i.e. personal glory) will lead to a proud heart and enmity against God.

Sin Of Pride - An Outline
The sin of pride is rightfully distinguished as the foremost among the seven "deadly sins," each of the seven equally as deadly, but none quite as notorious as this "sin of the devil."10 We're going to look at this sin of sins: how it manifests itself in our thoughts and lives, what are its effects and how we are to fight against it taking hold in our hearts. We'll begin by looking at two people in history that committed the sin of pride and how they're portrayed in the Bible. We'll look at how pride manifested itself in their lives and we'll make some practical observations. Then we'll look at how pride can infect our own hearts and minds, and finally, we'll discuss how to combat the sin of pride with humility. To skip right to the practical application of pride and humility, click here. We strongly recommend however that you read this short article in its entirety.

(taken from allaboutgod.com)

CHARMED.

2008-12-18T00:43:00.008+08:00

going bananas over charm bracelets!! i want that one!! and that one too!! and the one in the middle! it's got the verse isaiah41:10 scripted and printed on it!!!! such coolness!!!!

2008-12-17T00:05:00.002+08:00

got this off max lucado's "A Love Worth Giving":

you have a ticket to heaven no thief can take,
an eternal home no divorce can break.

every sin of your life has been cast to the sea.
every mistake you've made is nailed to the tree.

you're blood-bought and heaven-made.
a child of God-forever saved.

so, be grateful, joyful-for isn't it true?
what you don't have is much less than what you do.

i have only two words to say: WHOA. AMEN!!

this blog is ressurrected!

2008-12-15T23:48:00.003+08:00

HA! i remembered my username and password! and HA-i'm backkkkkk, bloggyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!

YEAHHH and a crazy year it's been man. really. storms followed by bigger storms, followed by some sunshine, yet followed by storms again blahblah but the sunshine doesn't really matter to me, cus in the storms, it's God i wanna see, not the dumb sun. and that's cus God calms the raging seas that threaten to swallow me whole. He keeps me safe in the palm of His hand and He says, "My child, sleep in peace. For I am your Maker, so will I be your Keeper." He stills the storm. that's why there's this song that says, "In the stillness You are there".

God's grace is what saved us and God's love is what keeps us. through the (obstacle) course of this year, God has rained me with His love, most of which go unnoticed:/ ahh sorry Daddy! and part of which i see i see with my eyes, not with my heart:/ sorrysorry Daddy!! but this only says one thing - whether or not we see it, God's love ALWAYS covers us. God can love us through people, like how He blessed me with three supremely important siblings in Christ, namely(in no order) SEOK, LYNN and TIMO:))) and these three angels really bear love's flagship as in 1 Cor 13:4-7 below:
"4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres." (seok! find this familiar?! hee!!) and that's what the love of God did thru them for me.
seok placed my growth above the comfort of our relationship, which actually broke down for months but thank God it's never better than now:) thank you dear, i respect and admire you for that, and everything else you've done for me, as well as how you're living your life with your eyes and heart on God and nowhere else so that i have a role model to look to. and i love you.
lynn...what can i say..she's just right by my side all the time, always praying for me, always encouraging, always offering advice, always dropping nuggets of wisdom and denying so cus she's too humble(you gotta teach me some of that man). you godly woman! stop belittling yourself!! you're WISE and HUMBLE and LOVING and these are like the top qualities!!! ohman i have no idea how to convince you so but you're really great so keep doing what you've been doing cus God must be super proud of you! thank you too, i love you.
timo(TIMBO)! hello SIS!! hahah thank God for you really. you know, watching you grow in your relationship with God and subsequently rising up to put into action all those burdens God has placed in your heart is SUPERULTRA encouraging! thank you for sharing your childlike faith - it's contagious:) and don't start denying it. as i've said to you countless times, faith is like electricity, you can't see it but you can see the light. so there. you may not see how strong your faith is but others can testify to it. you spur me on to greater growth too! yesss and thanks for being all that a "sister" is to me HAHAH. no really, thank you. i love you.

yet, of all the ways through which God expresses His undying love to us, nothing beats HEARING it from Him straight. as it has been said, one word from heaven can change our eternity. and it's just so true. testimonies shared to and from all over the world speak of how people are saved just by the simple knowledge that Jesus loves them. and to whoever's reading this now, i just wanna tell you that JESUS LOVES YOU, personally, powerfully, passionately. so SMILE:))))))

2008-07-30T21:24:00.003+08:00

wanchien rockSsssSSSsss!!!!!!

wanchien rocksSSsssSSss!!!!!!

wanchien rocksSsSSSsSss!!!!!!

wanchien rocksSSssSSssS!!!!!!

wanchien rocksSsSssSsSs!!!!!!

(blogging on behalf of busy wanchien hahaha)

2008-07-07T23:44:00.003+08:00

unit meeting at vivo rooftop today! xiangyu's message was "Grace is a gift." and that was the very same message i received from God this morning!! DIVINE. hahah and on my way home i met MINDY!! we chatted a little and talking to her's always pleasant! she's one faithful child of God man!! her child-like faith is truly inspiring and well i've got a pretty long way ahead of me in getting there BUTBUTBUT i'm working on it!

met huaxiang too to collect my study kit! he's a super encouraging brother to have and his humility is certainly one big thing i gotta work towards too! ohman i've sosososososososososmuch to grow in....

OHOH and thank God for yanling!! she's seriously one hugeeeeee blessing! we've never met, been on the phone only twice, exchanged some smses and that's it. but feels to me we share this deep understanding and bond that's sown and bound by the powerful love of God. it's just so amazing. God, thank You for being so awesome:) and yanling, thank you dear for being such a blessing!! uhh but sorry for landing you in this 'mess' HAHAH butbut we're in this together alright!! love you to bits!! <33!!

yesterday, i asked God for a "thorn in the flesh" to prevent me from getting conceited by my recent spate of growth. i've learnt this some time back, that if you dare to ask, God will give it to you. i've asked for testings before and got exactly that. i wonder what kind of a thorn He'd be giving me this time hahah. i regretted a little almost immediately after asking, but it lasted only a few seconds, cus i trust that my faithful Daddy knows my limits and He'll surely give me smthng bearable enough:) thank You again:)))

2008-05-31T00:57:00.003+08:00

here's an awesome song! i can't even begin to describe how beautiful it is!

How Great You Are - Phillips, Craig, and Dean

A thousand sparkling stars upon
a midnight summer sky
The majesty and wonder of
the ocean's endless tide
And the more I see,
the more I can't explain
How the One who set the world in place
could even know my name
And, I'm amazed.
I'm so amazed.

How great You are,
how small I am.
How awesome is
Your mighty hand.
And I am captured by
the wonder of it all.
And I will offer
all my praise,
with all my heart,
for all my days.
How great You are.
How great You are.
How great You are.

A million snowflakes gently fall,
yet no two are the same.
The colors fill the canvas of
the seasons as they change.
And everywhere I look,
I see Your hand.
Why you would love
someone like me,
I'll never understand.
And, I'm amazed.
I'm so amazed.

How great You are,
how small I am.
How awesome is
Your mighty hand.
And I am captured by
the wonder of it all.
And I will offer
all my praise,
with all my heart,
for all my days.
How great You are.
How great You are.
How great You are.

How great You are,
how small I am.
How awesome is
Your mighty hand.
And I am captured by
the wonder of it all.
And I will offer
all my praise,
with all my heart,
for all my days.
How great You are.
How great You are.
How great You are.

yay!! simply love it:)))

anyway i've realised just how bad my mandarin is. three nights ago i called my mama at her hotel in taiwan and i was stunned at the ramblings of the receptionist in mandarin that i didn't know how exactly to ask for my mama. thrown into a loss for words i simply blurted "wo3 yao4 zhao3 wo3 de4 ma1 ma1". the receptionist did not speak for about half a minute. me neither. i couldn't really believe i actually said that ha. finally the receptionist spoke slowly in english, after he kinda figured that english sounded my medium of communication. but well, he sounded really painful speaking english so i switched to mandarin and whew i finally got to mama!
and when i told my section about this, stickman asked, " so is his english worse than your mandarin?"
i'd like to think so HAHAHAH.

2008-05-17T21:41:00.002+08:00

7 hours of spiritual time today!! there was holy spirit baptism class, service and jc pm which got a lil draggy HAHAH. learnt a GREAT deal today, really. pastor jeff's sermon touched me as usual, xiangyu and fungmin's teaching on hsb was a new lesson too, since i wasn't taught right previously hah. well but what matters is that i've learnt it right this time round:)
love the word of God.
great is God, no, GREATEST is HE.
exalt Him as He deserves, and love Him love Him love Him.

anyway here's something reallyreallyreally inspiring that i wanna share with the world!!!

Power In Your Praise

“Offer unto God thanksgiving (praise); and pay thy vows unto the most High and call upon Me in the day of trouble: I will deliver thee, and thou shall glorify Me” (Psalms 50:14-15).

We serve an Almighty God who is worthy of all our praise. The Bible says “Through Jesus, therefore, let us continually offer to God a sacrifice of praise—the fruit of lips that confess His name” (Hebrews 13:15). It also says in Psalms 150:6 “Let everything that has breath praise the LORD.” This means praising God not only in church prior to the message, but continually. It should be a part of our lifestyle.

This is so important because when we praise Him, we acknowledge our faith and total trust in Him. In doing so, we invoke His omnipotent presence and power enabling His glory to fill our temple (us) and act on our behalf. It also helps us to look beyond our problems and see the promises of God.

Now, a very simple definition for praise is; a declaration of God’s goodness, who He is, His faithfulness, and what He has done. When this acknowledgement is made with our heart and spoken verbally, God is blessed and obliged to move. Psalms 22:3 states that God “inhabits our praise.” There are several illustrations of how God moved mightily based on the praise of His people:

Ø Paul and Silas were thrown in jail for preaching the gospel of Christ. Instead of complaining about the way they were beaten and tortured, they praised God with singing in the middle of the night. It was so powerful it changes their circumstances. God shook the prison, let them go, and caused the jailer to get saved. (Acts 16:19-31).

Ø King Jehoshaphat and the Kingdom of Judah were faced with certain annihilation by the armies of Ammon, Moab and Seir. However, after prayer and fasting, Jehoshaphat and the Kingdom of Judah praised God in the midst of their enemies, and “the Lord” caused the armies of Ammon, Moab and Seir to destroy each other. (2 Chronicles 20:1-23)

Ø Gideon defeated a huge Midianite Army with three hundred soldiers without even striking a blow with their swords. They simply praised God. They blew their trumpets and shouted “The sword of the LORD, and of Gideon” and, the Midianites turned their swords on themselves, destroying each other. (Judges 7:19-22)

Give God praise! He is so worthy. He deserves all we have to give and so much more. Sincere praise from our heart is necessary to invoke God’s presence and omnipotent power in our lives. It should not be something that we do only at church, but a part of our daily lifestyle. It helps us to look beyond our problems and to see the promises of God.

“Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God” (Psalms 42:11).

YESSSS!! praise God! for He is worthy and deserving! as i did my devotion someday the past week, i came across this verse:
(psa 144:15b) blessed are the people whose God is the LORD.
AMENAMEN i'm such a blessed little kid!! i've got the God of all creation, the Maker of heaven and earth and all that's in it backing me up what more can i ask for! what could be better!
i realised also, how kind God has always been to me, only that i fail so often to see. thank You God for opening my eyes to see Your lovingkindness:) another thing i saw, was that the more difficult the challenge i face, the kinder God is to me! in times such as these, God simply reveals Himself to me in all His greatness and just fills my heart with hope, joy and thanksgiving. even if i had to traverse rough rocky terrain, make my way on valleys and mountains, strenous and painful that might be, God has and will always bless me in His special ways, big and little:) and that's simply fantastic. fellow christians would always encourage thanking God in bad circumstances. this may sound annoying to some who think that the mess they're in warrants no single blessing from God to be grateful and thankful for but truth is, we've got the GREATEST blessing we need!! we've God walking with us every step of that difficult way, carrying us upon His shoulders, only that we've allowed our problems to overshadow the presence of God in our lives, every minute of it. so yes!! be thankful in all circumstances as God's word has instructed, because that's just so true! i've tried and tested that and CHECK, that's the truth and nothing but the whole truth. following, i prayed for a grateful heart that heaps thanksgiving unto God all day and God has really answered my prayers and now my life's even better and more joyful than before mann!! hahahah YAYYY!!! here's a quotable quote from a really old edition of Our Daily Bread that i wrote in my little prayer slip:
the pain of disappointment is soothed by a heart of gratitude.
i testify to the truth of that statement with my life's experiences.

God has taught me an amazing lot the past week once again and boy am i grateful! i love how God's wondrous methods of loving ministers directly to my heart, i love the way He loves me:)
Daddy Daddy Daddy thank You for Your tender and perfect love. i love the way You love me, and i want to love You more:))

2008-05-16T21:38:00.002+08:00

“The LORD your God is with you, he is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his love, he will rejoice over you with singing.”- Zephaniah 3:17

GOGOGO wanchien!!

every step i take, i take with You. every move i make, i make with You:))

thank You God:)

a memorable stay at TTSH!!

2008-05-09T20:39:00.006+08:00

PHOOOOOF!!! whew i'm back from ttsh! hahahha thank yall lovelies who texted and called and of course how could i forget those who made personal trips down, (and didn't get to see my pretty face HAHAH) SHINQ, LINGYAN and SANDRA!! and thank you 6G, jo and dingyi for the cards and stuff, especially the smartypants who blotted out AHEM's face HAHAHA nice job there!! thank yall also, TINGJUN, MICH, SHUMIN, LYNNIE for making a house visit together with shinq and lingyan, especially tj for that ultra pretty and cute card, thanks ol' pal, YOU ROCK!!

alrighty i shall begin with mr chua's FANTASTIC driving skills hahahha he drove pretty fast and i was totally surprised cus i expected him to go no more than 60kmph OOPS hahah but he just sped down the highway and conveniently missed the road to ttsh hahah. when we got there mr chua was his usual funny self, fascinated by everything and anything at the hospital hahah he's super funny!! uhh shan't go into the details hee!

so i waited a good while till the doc called for me and mr chua was presumably too fascinated by the parachute free fall that the movie was showing on the tv at the waiting area so he only jolted and wheeled me to the consultation area after my name was being called three times HAHAH! when i saw my doc, i stared. he had a pitiful looking hand cast in some weird plastic thingy, absolutely mummified and not exactly reassuring for the patient. so i asked him what he did to that poor hand of his and he went on to tell me that he hurt it somehow and if he removed the plastic thingy i'd see wires sticking out. UH HUH. and he seemed to have a really painful time typing; he was basically jabbing at the keyboard with one finger from his mummified hand and the other good hand in an extremely awkward position ha. then he went on to ask those routine questions, one of which i found to be most ridiculous but i shan't publicise it here! yeah and he tested my reflexes by scratching the soles of my feet with this sharp-ended thing. and i roared in pain each time till i think mr chua was rather alarmed hahah. ohoh then the doc wanted to draw some blood to run a couple of tests and that was after mr chua left and my mother came in. i told the doc not to break the alexandra hospital's doc's record of inserting the needle into the wrong spot four times and he was like, "don't worry...i'm a professional despite my mangled hand, trust me" oh i'm sure. my mother was like yeahyeah i trust you but i told him straight, "i don't trust you!" he asked why and i said, " look at your face!" and he happily continued, "it's so trustworthy, we're the paragon of human hope and we love our fellow humankind" I'M SURE. that line popped out at least thrice and it's seriously funny coming from him hahahahah i love talking to my doc! OH he told me not to take medicine(the course, i mean). yayy he's the coolest, chattiest and wittiest doc i've come across; bantering with him=FUN! oh but when he told me i had to be admitted i was seriously annoyed cus there's chem spa on saturday!! rahh so i had to stay, and i was parked in the observation ward the entire duration cus till i was discharged there still wasn't a single free bed/ward. i was appalled by that, as well as how the observation ward was filled with predominantly females. ha. more than appalled, i was utterly disgusted and irritated by the fact that i had to stay in that 'parking lot' with a dying phone and a dead ipod(ran dead after two lines of a song played) chickendonutmiaow. oh the observation ward's a different story...

being parked at a random spot in the observation ward wasn't fun at all, especially when they parked me near all the rather *ahem* EXTRAORDINARY cases. here are a few of my personal favourites from this absolutely thrilling episode:

1) Cindy
cindy was parked one bed next to mine and the poor lady, i suppose, needed care and attention real badly; she kept calling out to the nurses to get her water/milo, of which she'd drink only half and yell for more. after that trick didn't work she began shouting for people to change her diapers. so the diaper-changing antic carried on for two hours into midnight(shinq heard it over the cordless phone i was chatting to her on). and nobody did change her diapers. when cindy realised nobody liked changing diapers she decided her fingernails were too long! so this time she yelled for the nurses to cut her fingernails! but seriously, the nurses were way too busy for her, the A&E department was like a battlefield - paramedics, nurses, doctors and everyone else rushing in and out and that was crazy. well anyway cindy spent the night wailing for attention, not succeeding until she threw a huge tantrum and kicked the eating tray and stood on her bed to proclaim her greatness. yeah. cindy ftw!

2) scary
there was this really skinny lady who was accompanied by three policemen/women when she came and she kept insisting on being discharged. she looked really fierce man. i'll bet she's enough to make us all do every tutorial hahah. and my mother couldn't take her eyes off that lady, and she didn't get the hint when the policeman stared at her with that "watcha lookin at" face.

3) life
there were, parked by my sides, two ladies, one young and one old. the young one had a 'suicide caution chart' on top of her 'vital signs chart'. yeah. i was pretty freaked, i mean, i wouldn't know what to do if she attempted anything out of the ordinary. oh but she had a bible on her eating table and that set me thinking, why would she even entertain the thought of giving up her life on earth if she's no stranger to God's love? the older lady on my other side looked reallyreally sad, and for some time she went telling everybody she needed to "start afresh". it was only when i was about to be discharged that the sister of this lady started talking to me and at that point i really, sincerely wanted to tell the lady how much God loves her. somehow i couldn't. no, more like i didn't. so now i've this huge regret in my heart of not sharing the good news with these people who need them so badly. in a way, God has used this hospital stay to teach me that, no matter where i am, i'm an ambassador of His love, His grace and His mercy. never under any circumstance should i hesitate in spreading His message of love when the spirit stirs in me a conviction and need to do so. this regret i carry is also my shame, that i've failed God in a place where much of His love is needed. but i shall use it as a reminder to spur me on in my days in the future, to carry out my rightful duty as a messenger of God's love, cus i don't wanna add to this same regret. ever.

yay while i hated the physical stay at the hospital, i can't help marvelling at how good God is at working in the most unexpected of ways. He's opened my spiritual eyes and heightened my spiritual senses to His people, thank You God for showing me the way:)
and i love my doc too!! yay i love dr liam!! he rocks!(even though i told him i hate him OOPS)hahah i'm further convinced that i'll never work in the health&med field, BUTBUTBUT i shall marry one who does!! i'm gonna marry a doctor HAHAHAHAH!!

after i got home i had visits from my beloved sn4c/hc friends:)))) yall rock!! that was real heartening, on top of all the cards and well-wishes i received. sadly the good time didn't really last cus things started happening at home again, right after i was discharged the same afternoon. and it really annoyed me a considerable lot, but more than that i was absolutely saddened/pained by such happenings. i went bawling to God again, who reminded me that He has made me so strong. and i know that through these experiences, God will make me even stronger:) God has further given me a conviction to use my life as a lesson, a teaching, to let my experiences and encounters teach His people, to speak to them, encourage them and show them His great love and the wonders of all His ways:) yes God, let me teach others with my life, let Your love, grace, mercy and faithfulness unveil themselves to Your people as You speak through my life:)))

OH and God has taught me an amazing lot this week!! every single day from monday God has revealed a new treasure to me in His word each day!! and as i read the book of Daniel and how he lived a life in full faith and trust in God, i'm just so in awe of this great man of God!! i've got SOMUCHSOMUCHSOMUCH to learn from him!! the book of Romans is another eye-opener as well, peace and joy just floods the soul as i take in those powerful words:)

"And we[b] rejoice in the hope of the glory of God."(romans 5:2b)
the funny thing is, when i read this verse, i didn't understand it in its entirety, in fact even if i tried to dissect it into parts or individual words, somehow i feel that i just can't decipher it fully(i shall try to find out) but what's important to me about this verse is that i know that God's will for me is to rejoice, and though i know not what "the hope of the glory of God" means exactly, i'm filled with joy and hope!! ahahahah Gods words are THAT powerful!! hahahah actually the whole of Romans 5 is incredibly encouraging and heartening, READ IT!!

as i read the book of Daniel, these three words just struck me - How God Saves. many incidents in both the old and new testament show how our mighty God saves. the conclusion i came to was, God saves us by His GRACE, we (can only) save ourselves by our FAITH.

Jesus loves you!! <33!!

2008-05-07T21:22:00.003+08:00

yay!! God has been teaching me to be joyful these days and yeahhhh LIFE IS GREAT man!! here's something really nice!

Nothing Compares To You

by WhtDove

I'm sitting here filled with wonder
At the amazing things you do
How the waters stay in the oceans
And the vast beauty of the view

How the stars are hung in the sky
Within them is written your word
How we are the following sheep
And you are the only Shepherd

How the sky is painted with color
Bursts of orange in the sunset glow
How much knowledge it took to make
And how little us humans know

How intricately you planned it
There was nothing you left unthought
From the delicacy of a babyT
o all the sins of ours you bought

There's no other love that's out there
As deep and as faithful and true
No other comfort to be found
Because nothing compares to you

Nothing compares to your miracles
Or the listening time you spend
How you always take good care of us
And our broken hearts that you mend

To us, our problems like mountains
To you, they're no problem at all
You're ever so watchful and there
To help catch us, when we do fall

I'm just sitting here filled with wonder
At the awesome things that you do
At being our Lord and Savior
Because nothing compares to You!

“Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.”- 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18

God is God

2008-05-02T17:54:00.004+08:00

truly, God is God. and God is faithful! i've never met (and never will i meet) anyone more faithful, reliable, patient, loving, gracious and generous than God. i've learnt this hard but i've learnt it well - friends may fail you, family may fail you, even your spiritual family can fail you, but God will NEVER fail you, because man is man but God is God!! yay i really thank God for being so faithful and loving towards me, and of course, PATIENT. hahah God's patience is simply amazing man - He can put up with such an obdurate, pertinacious and rebellious child like me!! and He reallyreallyreally loves me alotalotalot!! :))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

YAY!! met up with AUDREYCHONGGYSHORTY-ZHEN today!!! hahah i was sosososososo happy to spend time with her, however short it might have been! ZHEN I LOVE YOU LIKE CRAZY!!! hahahahah yay let's do great things for God together k! ohman can't wait for our next meeting!!!!!!!!!! i'm totally looking forward to it!!

i love You God!!! thank You for everything!! :))))))))

“This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us. And if we know that he hears us—whatever we ask—we know that we have what we asked of him.”- 1 John 5:14-15

2008-04-29T23:54:00.005+08:00

ohmannnnnn. i need a phone. my new 6500s has been officially declared beyond repair. i gotta return cuzzie her phone, plus the non-colour phone i borrowed from another friend won't work anymore grrrrrrrrrr. i need a phone of my own. hmm. so all you out there DO TELL ME IF YOU HAVE A SECOND HAND PHONE FOR SALE!! or if you've any contacts for mobile phone deals!! yeap thanks!

I SHALL NOT EMO.

DADDY GOD COMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

He Knows My Name

I have a Maker
He formed my heart
Before even time began
My life was in his hands

He knows my name
He knows my every thought
He sees each tear that falls
and He hears me when I call

I have a Father
He calls me His own
He'll never leave me
No matter where I go

He knows my name
He knows my every thought
He sees each tear that falls
and He hears me when I call

dear Daddy come come come

OKAY i shall run into Daddy's arms away from the nonsense in my way!! RUUUUNNNNN! He loves me big time! HAHAHAHA

hmm...

2008-04-20T23:39:00.004+08:00

thought this would finally be a much needed period of rest and recovery for me but somehow God has more in store for me. okay God, i don't know what to do anymore but God, just let Your will unfold in my life again and do all things necessary for me to give up my own stubborn will to You. God if necessary, crush me and weaken me so much so that my human strength, uncompliant will, foolish pride and all things human, will run far far away and what's left of me is a beaten, flattened piece of roti prata. cus i know that it is only then that i can be made strong and good again in Your abounding love, that You can fill me with what i need to be an effective vessel of Yours. God, in all i say and all i do, may they be to honour You. may Your will be done in my life. in Jesus' name i lift up my soul, amen.

I'M BACK!!!!!!

2008-04-19T19:27:00.005+08:00

yay!!!!!!!!!!!! whewwwwwwwwwwwwwww. life's been EXTREMELY eventful:)) and God has been MORE THAN FAITHFUL!!!!!! ohmygosh i don't even know how to begin saying this but GOD IS AMAZINGWONDERFULAWESOME AND OH-SO-LOVELY!!!!!!!!! this trying period i've been put through has really shown me how real God is and just how much He loveloveloves me. He is FAITHFUL and will ever be, and truly, He will not give us beyond what we can bear. trust me when i say that man, or talk to me personally about this and let my experiences and encounters testify to God's greatness themselves:)

here's what God left me with:

"The Lord's will be done." (Acts 21:14)

8 Yet, O LORD, you are our Father.
We are the clay, you are the potter;
we are all the work of your hand. (Isaiah 64:8)

and guess what, after i shared this with the cg on thursday, this same thing was brought up at service today. how COOL is that huh. ohmygosh i'm totally wowed over. powerpowerpower. this is simply AMAZING. i am so in awe of God's greatness i'm at a loss for words ha.

plus, God has helped me to bear fruit-fruit of the spirit! today, especially, He's given me so much so much:
22But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23gentleness and self-control. (Gal 5:22-23)
yup, i received these fruit:)))))) ohmygosh thankYouthankYouthankYouthankYou God, words are not enough to express my feelings for You but i know You see my heart and You hear the unspoken:)

worship today was wonderful, the song brought a beautiful thought to my mind; one that i wanna claim and hold onto tightly -
...and through the storm,
yet i will praise You,
despite it all,
yet i will sing.
through good or bad,
yet i will worship,
You remain the same,
King of kings.
yes God, YET i will praise You, YET i will sing of my joy and delight in You, YET i will worship You all of my days, rain or shine. because God, i know that You are good, ALL THE TIME:))

yay kenny's a great joy to have in this cg!! thank you kenny! and thank God for you!! and thank you siahgor for those super encouraging and inspiring verses you shared with me just now, let's do great things for God!!

thank you also, LYNNIE!! and TTJ!! thank you two for your constant encouragement and affirmation all this while, really needed them. thank you two darlings for being such blessings!! i love you two!!

OH and thank you VACUUM CLEANER and FUNGMIN for your love, care, prayers and encouragement too, they meant and helped ALOTALOTALOT, i love you two darlings too!! <33!!!!!

yayyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!! off i go now! back to swimming in God's love!! yay swimswimswim!! :)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

2008-04-11T22:57:00.002+08:00

yayy!! here's what i've learnt during this trying period:

"Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need." Hebrews 4:15-16

ask for God to provide for our needs, doing so with confidence and in faith, for He is merciful and abounding in love. therefore we have no need to stand in doubt of His promises, for if even for a split second we do not believe, this lack of faith spells a worthless prayer! as the Word says,
"If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer."Matthew 21:21-23

"...Do not grieve, for the joy of the LORD is your strength." Nehemiah 8:10c

seriously, grief is annoying. it's the devil's primary tool against the love of God in all of us - another one of its deceptions. it makes us weak and disillusioned, throwing us into the abyss of self-pity, self-reproach, even blaming God. God has promised that in His kingdom, "4He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away." His kingdom shall be one overflowing with "milk and honey"; goodness and wholesomeness:)) yay so let's press towards this day and destination, making "the joy of the LORD" our STRENGTH and shield against the enemy!! :))))

"That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong." 2 Corinthians 12:9-11

YESS!! so the verse in bold speaks for itself!! it is when we are weak that we are made strong again!! THANK YOU GOD!!! God sees all our weaknesses and inadequacies and He will nevernevernever give us more than we can bear!! with each weakness we are afflicted with, God makes His perfect love for us known by filling us with His strength so that we can carry on!! and if we think we can only see ONE set of footprints in the sand in times of trials and testing, we must know that it's cus we're riding on His shoulders through this period, and not that we're walking alone!! YAYY THANK YOU GOD FOR LIFTING ME UP!!!!!!!

yayyyy PW A!!!! hahah the whole class scored an A!!! but actually that's nothing big really, at least in hc hahah, considering how 98.2% of the cohort scored A...yay but great job 6G!! we have dr ross to thank!!!!!

thank God also for songjun, this wonderful brother who's been super encouraging in my time of need, THANK YOU VACUUM CLEANER!! YOU ROCK!!!

:)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

2008-04-07T19:47:00.002+08:00

my favourite prayer: GOD, HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yay!! the past week has been pretty eventful - i went out with carolanne last friday and we had a jolly good time people-watching HAHAH, oh and PIGGING OUT too!! super funnnnnnn!!!!!! I LOVE CAROLANNE!!

then there was the dinner at meritus mandarin last saturday which i attended in a DRESS, yes, a D-R-E-S-S. and the girls in my cg had fun watching me squirm in it in agony! hahahah right, BRUDDER and TIANRUO?!

okayy then it was sunday all of a sudden and i was like, HUH, it's sunday already?! right so sunday came and went and i have no idea how. i can't even remember what i spent my sunday doing. and BOOM it's monday and i was booked for latecoming again. but i honestly wasn't late, at least the time i got on the bus wasn't. sickening 74. hahah but last sermon was about stress and dealing with it by adopting life-giving habits, how timely!! plus i'm having some problems here and there lately(well actually it's been some time) but YAY i'm walking with Jesus in this, so NO MATTER!!

ending off with my all-time favourite prayer once again: GOD, HELP ME!!!!!!! thank You!! in Jesus' name, AMEN!!

2008-04-03T20:51:00.003+08:00

“Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.”- Hebrews 12:2

Lord Jesus, i thank You for being all of the above:) Jehovah Jireh, i pray You'll grant me all that i need to walk with You daily, to live by Your word, to obey Your precepts, to love You and love Your people. El Shaddai i pray Lord, that You'll make me fruitful in this time as i seek You. Jehovah Shalom, i pray for Your peace to reign in me, Your unfathomable peace that i so need. Jehovah Shamah i know that You are ever with me, so Father i pray that i will be muchmuchmuch more aware of Your comforting and reassuring presence and that Your everlasting, unfailing and unchanging love will fill me, heal me, shield me and guide me. God i know that You see my heart, my weaknesses, my numerous flaws and imperfections and all the hidden aspects of my character i may have kept away from the world. and God i know, that in spite of all these, You still love me deeply. this is why i wanna work towards becoming the kind of person You have created me to be; to be a pleasing child, one whose life is a song of worship beautifully sung unto You. Father i live for You and You alone. i care not what the rest of the world may think of me, or what they see me as - a child sorely lacking in love and patience, a child whose aberrant ways and insufficiencies leave much room for improvement. these are undeniably traits of mine, i do admit. but Lord i trust that You will help me as i strive to be a muchmuchmuch better person. Father fill my heart with desire for You, let me thirst and hunger for You more than anything else. God i pray You'll help me fix my eyes on You, not on anybody else who, with their opinions and words may affect me in this spiritual race, for Lord, i wanna look to You all of my days, to cling onto Your words of truth rather than those of the people of this earth as well as those who are running this race with me. Lord Jesus i wanna be victorious as You have called me to be. develop, grow and perfect my faith, Author and Perfector of faith and love. let me come to know how to love as You have. In Jesus' mightymightypowerful name i claim all of these victories, AMEN!! :))))))))

2008-04-02T20:45:00.002+08:00

yayyyy im so happy today!! cus i met ttj before and during co and we had a GREAT time chatting:)) then we went home together after co and talked some more hahah. yay i reallyreallyreally enjoy her company!! OH plus she reminded me that i'm losing a little of my joy these days and encouraged me a pretty good bit, thank you ttj for that timely and extremely necessary reminder!! i shall catch my joy back:)) and your encouragement..actually it was more of your presence and company, thank you for them all, let's work together k!! also, you may not realise but you've helped me unknowingly in my spiritual walk! XIEXIE! I LOVE YOU TTJ!!! <3!!!

as i was listening to the song "everyday" just now and the lyrics went "...everyday i'll follow after You..everyday i'll walk with You my Lord..". it suddenly dawned on me that i've failed to do so for some time now since the sermon was preached. the significance of my blog address was called to mind too - wwjd squared= Walk With Jesus Daily/What Would Jesus Do. this has passed in neglect of late too. i haven't really been walking my days with my Lord and i haven't considered what He would do in circumstances i face. as such i've been more or less walking alone because i've neglected and chose to ignore the Lord's presence and company, acting in manners that don't testify to His Ways of goodness. but thank You God for reminding me, for coming to my rescue once again. truly, "He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand."(Psalm 40:1-3) i will testify to the goodness and faithfulness of the Lord, to His unchanging, unending, unconditional and unfailing love:))))) thank You Abba Father, i love You!! <333!!!

hmm...in a reflective mood...yay!!

hahah OH i met kenny at the bus stop today!! had a nice chat with him, short as it may have been! hahahah ohmygosh i seriously hope that CERTAIN people in the cg won't influence this pure and good child of God with their habits and ways...*ahem* YY...*ahem* HAHHAHAH

yaaaay this captures, more than accurately, the sweetness and joy that floods my heart by the knowledge that i know this awesome God who created this universe and all in it!! sometimes i wonder how people are able to express so aptly and delicately the exact thoughts and feelings that i have about my lovely and loving Daddy, then i realised that it was this same Creator of the universe who created those collection of words in songs and poems!! how cool is that huh!!

I come to the garden alone
While the dew is still on the roses
And the voice I hear falling on my ear
The Son of God discloses.

And He walks with me,
and He talks with me,
And He tells me I am His own;
And the joy we share as we tarry there,
None other has ever known.

He speaks, and the sound of His voice,
Is so sweet the birds hush their singing,
And the melody that He gave to me
Within my heart is ringing.

And He walks with me,
and He talks with me,
And He tells me I am His own;
And the joy we share as we tarry there,
None other has ever known.

I’d stay in the garden with Him
Though the night around me be falling,
But He bids me go; through the voice of woe
His voice to me is calling.

And He walks with me,
and He talks with me,
And He tells me I am His own;
And the joy we share as we tarry there,
None other has ever known.

HAPPY!!!! heck blocks one and the results, they're really terrible but God i want JOY, not happiness, for JOY is EVERLASTING, happiness is but temporal! yay and God YOU are my source of JOY!!<33333!!!!!!!!

2008-04-01T15:48:00.002+08:00

cg bbq at eileen's house last sunday was TERRRRIIIIIIIFIC!! eileen's mom's the hippest and coolest mommy ever!! hahah we all had a whopping great time! OH and i found a NEW AMBITION HAHAH!

anyway i think God's message to me these days is SPARKLING clear: seek His righteousness. i guess i totally need to work on that.
i feel God is really really kind to me. each time there's a lesson He wants me to learn, He makes it so obvious, and so available. i don't know how to describe it either but it's just like that. thank You God for recognising my weaknesses and flaws, and for being my perfect Teacher:))

tired. again. as usual.

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2008-03-29T22:56:00.002+08:00

yay here are some beautifulbeautiful works of blessed children of God!!

Footprints in the Sand

One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.
In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.
Sometimes there were two sets of footprints,
other times there was one only.
This bothered me because I noticed that during the low periods of my life,
when I was suffering from anguish, sorrow or defeat,
I could see only one set of footprints,
so I said to the Lord,

“You promised me Lord,
that if I followed you,
you would walk with me always.
But I have noticed that during the most trying periods of my life
there has only been one set of footprints in the sand.
Why, when I needed you most, have you not been there for me?”

The Lord replied, “The years when you have seen only one set of footprints,
my child, is when I carried you.”
-Mary Stevenson, 1936

Footprints, Also Known As "I Had a Dream"

One night I dreamed a dream.
I was walking along the beach with my Lord.
Across the dark sky flashed scenes from my life.
For each scene, I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand,
one belonging to me and one to my Lord.
When the last scene of my life shot before me
I looked back at the footprints in the sand.
There was only one set of footprints.
I realized that this was at the lowest and saddest times of my life.
This always bothered me
and I questioned the Lord about my dilemma.

"Lord, You told me when I decided to follow You,
You would walk and talk with me all the way.
But I'm aware that during the most troublesome times of my life
there is only one set of footprints.
I just don't understand why,
when I need You most,
You leave me."

He whispered, "My precious child,
I love you and will never leave you,
never, ever, during your trials and testings.
When you saw only one set of footprints,
It was then that I carried you."
-Margaret Fishback Powers, 1964

I Know Who Holds Tomorrow
(words and music by Ira Stanphill)

I don't know about tomorrow,
I just live from day to day.
I don't borrow from it's sunshine,
For it's skies may turn to gray.
I don't worry o'er the future,
For I know what Jesus said,
And today I'll walk beside Him,
For He knows what is ahead.

Refrain
Many things about tomorrow,
I don't seem to understand;
But I know Who holds tomorrow,
And I know Who holds my hand.

Ev'ry step is getting brighter,
As the golden stairs I climb;
Ev'ry burden's getting lighter;
Ev'ry cloud is silver lined.
There the sun is always shining,
There no tear will dim the eyes,
At the ending of the rainbow,
Where the mountains touch the sky.

Refrain
Many things about tomorrow,
I don't seem to understand;
But I know Who holds tomorrow,
And I know Who holds my hand.

I don't know about tomorrow,
It may bring me poverty;
But the One Who feeds the sparrow
,Is the One Who stands by me.
And the path that be my portion,
May be through the flame or flood,
But His presence goes before me,
And I'm covered with His blood.

Refrain
Many things about tomorrow,
I don't seem to understand;
But I know Who holds tomorrow,
And I know Who holds my hand.

WHOAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.
swimming in God's love!!

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2008-03-29T22:18:00.002+08:00

PRAISE GOD!!!!!! kelly's 'long-lost brother', kenny entered our family in Christ today!!!!!!!! ohmygoshohmygoshohmygosh all of us were/are soooooooooooooooo supersupersupersuper happy!!!!!!!!!!! kenny's the new addition to the now F6! hahah i hope to God he doesn't get led astray by the other F5!! hahaha all the same, yay three cheers for God!! svc today was GREAT as usual!! yeahhhhhh life is good WITH GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh i just realised brudder has the same blogskin as me!! now we're REALLY brudders in every way!! hahaha!

“God made him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.”- 2 Corinthians 5:21
prayer meet reminded us to be righteous before God. the name Jehovah M' Kaddesh came to mind as i saw the need to call Him by His name to ask for sanctification and purification of heart and soul so that our heart's motives and all that we say and do can be made righteous in the eyes of God:)

i was also reminded that my God is THE God who created heaven and earth, and that He's my LAO DA, my BIG BOSS!!!!!! hahahah yay so i can boast freely of the great God almighty who's my backing and have no fear of anything nor anybody AT ALL!!!! yay:))))))))))))))))))))))

2008-03-27T20:47:00.001+08:00

i shall let this verse speak for itself:

“My salvation and my honor depend on God ; he is my mighty rock, my refuge.”- Psalm 62:7

ULTRA-COOL dayyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-03-26T21:19:00.003+08:00

YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!! i had a SUPERSUPER FUNNNNNNN day!!! first thing in the morning i met up with my darling cuzzie!!!!!! the time we spent together today was way more than eventful!! here was what we did/ran into(!!so exciting!!):

1)breakfast at macs! we were chatting happily till this old man walked into macs to a couple eating at the table behind ours. he appeared to want to grab their food and the guy brushed his hand away. the old man tried a second time and got brushed off again. the third time he reached over he simply grabbed the poor guy's hashbrown and marched out proudly after some gesturing and mumbling which i presume to not have any pleasantries after his mighty act hahah. yeahh but it was a rather crazy thing to do, and watch too. i mean, it's kinda scary if it happens to you but it's really quite funny if happens to someone else hahah. oops!

2)walked around bugis street/village and it was seriously annoying since the shops weren't open even at 12pm!! when we asked a shopkeeper she said it'd be well about 2pm before all the shops would be open. like wow. lazy people! hmmph! so we walked around AGAIN and saw some super nice bags and this really pretty pair of shoes but we ended up buying NONE of them HAHAH. the place got so boring we went back to bugis junction where cuzzie bought a pretty blouse and i wanted somuchsomuch to buy this beautiful blue dress but it didn't fit too well at the hips since i have a big butt...haiiiiiiiiiiiyaaaaaaaaaaa...and it was the ONE AND ONLY piece the shop ordered. it was way too exquisite, rare and delicate a piece, at the same time making a powerful statement of red-carpet glamour, gorgeous and dazzling in all its resplendent beauty. haiiiiiiyaaaa. okay it's okay it's okay. its just a dress isn't it? yeah it's just pieces of blue cloth put together with thread...BUT IT'S CRAZY NICE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! grrrrrrrrrrrrrr

3)cuzzie and i walked back to bugis street again hahah and finally, being terribly horribly bored and disgusted with our lousy skin, we decided to go for a PEDICURE!!!! hahah yay! it wasn't that good though, for what we paid. they scrubbed our soles with this funny thing and we both laughed like madwomen cus it was just too tickly for us HAHAH, and the other customers stared at us. no stranger to that though! after all that scrubbing and filing which my poor toes were eternally glad was over(the pair of flats i wore totally killed my feet, blisters popped out everywhere!), we got to choose the nail colour!! hahah we chose this super bling-bling glitter!! after waiting for our bling-bling glitter to dry i put on my shoes and went on with my day and donutmioawchickennutbeef less than three hours later when i removed my shoes the bling-bling glitter was half gone from my toes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr soannoyingsoannoyingsoannoying how dare they make me pay so much for such lousy service!!!!!!!!! chickennutbeefchickennutbeefchickennutbeeffffffffffffffffff. okay fine i shall TRY not to let it affect me.

4) HIGHLIGHT OF OUR CUZZIES OUTING!! as we left the pedicure place to go BACK to bugis junction we were stopped by this tiny lady with a green speck of hair on her head hahah, and she asked if we'd "like a free haircut because their clients didn't turn up and they had to make the number so they're giving it out for free". cuzzie and i were pretty skeptical initially but decided to check it out since the little lady was so tiny we were absolutely confident of *ahem* handling her should anything quite out of the ordinary happen so we followed her and ended up at TONI&GUY HAIRDRESSING can you believe it can you believe it!!!!!!!!! like TONI&GUY HAIRDRESSING that's crazy!!!! hahah well turned out their 'clients' were supposed to be models for the exchange students for hairstyling from taiwan here on higher skills training! so cool! right so it worked this way: the taiwanese hairstylists will give you a consultation on what they think suits your face and they'll bring this up to the singaporean teacher who claims that each time someone goes to him for a haircut it's a clean $200 job(believable though, considering it's TONI&GUY HAIRDRESSING ohmygosh!!). yeap so anyway she, being the typical taiwanese into cutesy and super havoc hairstyles suggested this 'fantastic' idea that would prolly leave me looking like the shinigami in 'death note' and thank God the teacher said it was a terrible suggestion, yeah that, and going on to say " so ugly! her hair is already ugly enough! go and rebond until like that! so thin! no dong4 gan3(whatever that is)...no (something) no (something else) you think very nice is it?! it sucks!! it's so ugly!!" ouch. finally came across someone with the same blunt candor as i. even more so. he's virtually simon cowell the second man. ouch. all the same i had the haircut - not vastly different from the present one save for the shockingly unsuitable cleopatra fringe-straight-cut bangs and 3cm of hair snipped off. the back was decent i have to say. but the fringe ohmygosh the fringe. i don't wanna talk about it. the hairstylist's meticulousity impressed me greatly nevertheless - not so much as one single strand of loose hair out of line was allowed. yeah they were THAT strict. and seriously TONI&GUY ain't got a name fer nothin'! before cutting they had to consult, then design, then DRAW out the design using a marker on the mirror(heaven knows how they do it and how they understand those funny lines and dots on a circle) and make continual reference to their brilliant doodles! now THAT is some REAL PROFFESSIONALISM!!!!!! wowed over!!!! but after that the simon cowell the second came over to have a look and he was like, " i'm trying to make you look more presentable and pretty, the sides ah(he meant the sides of the hair)...haiya see also not happy" yeah fine. not like HIS hair was anywhere near nice, in fact it looks only barely human in my opinion, and i'm already being very kind!! hahah then he went back to fussing over girl whom he thought was "so pretty!! see your hair i make until so nice!! now you even more pretty!!" okay i can't stand typing any more of such 'english'.
anyway cuzzie didn't have too good a haircut either, she thinks it's too round and looks like a helmet. indeed when she was done that annoying man came over and said, "next time you ride motorbike no need to wear helmet already". like wow thanks ah. hmm but don't be sad cuzzie!!! you look better than that 'pretty girl', and most certainly better than that man! and i still love you all the same! with or without helmet!!!!!! HAHAHAHAHAH okokok i reallyreally love you!! serious!
OHOHOH we met pan lingling and xu zhenrong at bugis junction!!!!! i noticed from far this outstanding, eye-catching, extremely well-dressed man(didn't notice the lady hahah)and when i got up close cuzzie and i gasped a little then turned to each other with that look of surprise!! haha they were really well-dressed in their clean and crisp jackets and blouse and accessories too, not forgetting the super heavy make-up which made them look really good though! hahah celebrities indeed. but i'd much rather look like the average human(well maybe some may think i'm worse but i don't care God's creations are all beautiful!) and know that in the eyes of my Creator, i'm a beautiful piece of work of His hand; than to look gorgeous and all in the eyes of the world but not know the heart of my Creator, my Saviour, my Shepherd, my Father:))))))))))))))

hmm after our hair disasters we parted ways and i headed for mind cafe at raffles place. to be honest i dislike that place. immensely. intensely. profoundly. beyond words. i really don't like it there. i shan't rant about those reasons lest some mind cafe fan or worse still, employer or employee chances upon this and decides to sue me but bottom-line: i do not like that place. well but still i went.
mengxiang and i went to change slippers cus the size didn't fit my extraordinarily HUGE feet! hahah while searching for the shop i couldn't take the torture of keeping my poor feet stuffed in those evil flats so i took them off and walked around the fourth level of heeren barefooted hahahah. that invited some stares but again, i'm not stranger to them! hahahahah yay got a pretty pair in the end!! thank you mex!!

YAYYYYYYYY yimin, yici and i have decided on the date and venue for our next FOODYADVENTURE!!!!!!!! wooohoooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!! yayyyyyyy love you two like crazy!!!!! and yimin, you just gotta remind me about PORKY alright!!! haahahhahah can't wait!!

yayyyy and of course, my eventful and happy day(S) couldn't EVER be possible without my loving Father in heaven!! thank You Abba!!!! thank You for loving me soooooooo incredibly much!! i love You God!!!!!!<333!!!!!!!!!

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2008-03-25T22:16:00.003+08:00

i just found out xyy converted last saturday at easter service ohmygoshohmygoshohmygoshohmygosh i'm such a failure to have known so only now...HAIYA. okay i shall go reflect on my mistakes. but YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY another brother in the family!!!!!!!! thank You God!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! looooooooove You!!!!!!!!!!!!

just had a second packet of chocolate vitasoy. i feel super unhealthy. hmmph. but it's nice all the same!

made a HUGE mistake of "trimming" my fringe. it looks chopped off.

life after blocks

2008-03-25T21:11:00.002+08:00

hmmph missed my target by half an hour! i woke at 1230 instead of 1pm! hmm at least i had a decent rest!!

yayyy i'm going out with my darling cuzzie tomorrow before jts!!! so exciting!!!!!!! ohmygoshohmygoshohmygosh i can hardly wait!! tomorrow's gonna be crazy fun!! plusplusplus i talked to mich just now and we have a jolly fun and cool plan for this friday!! yayyyy thank You God for all these blessings!!

chocolate vitasoy rocks!!!!!!!!!!!

O-V-E-R!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-03-24T16:22:00.007+08:00

OHMYGOSHYAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY BLOCKS ARE OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

aahhhh......i feel like i can breathe now...and SLEEP, yes SLEEEEEEEEEP!!!!!!!!!
ate myself to explosion just now, what with the chocolate BARS(not pieces) and random crap and the official meals HAHAHAH. i'm so full i can burst now.
and don't even talk about physics. it's an evil evil word.
OH and i bruised my leg badly from the ride on 852 with seok just now. PAINNNNNNNNN!! stupid bus seat. hmmph.

anyway I LOVE PASTOR SHIRLEY!!!!!!! she's so cuper cute!!!!!! hahahha and pastor jeff too! ohmygosh hope rocks!!

yayyyy hibernation now!! prolly won't be up till 1pm tomorrow! COOL!
OHYA junior class gave me a birthday card!!! everyone wrote in it and this SMART kid wrote twice even! hahah but yayyy it's awfully sweet of them and special thanks to yeeching, cus i think she was the one who thought of it!! thank you dear!! i love you alotalot!! and OH there was this chinese couplet written the old chinese style-in vertical rows from the right. i was like WHOA. but the strokes are so cool! hahah so full of style and character man!! hohohohoho shall go find out what it means..

OHOH!! i received a BOX of cards and letters from my cg!! yayy thank yall lovelies!! you know, i was reading them on my train ride home and laughing and grinning to myself!! quite a number of people in the same cabin stared at me and well i guess i was only second to mas selamat in attracting attention on local public transport ha! but doesn't bother me!! i love this family of God!!

13Now the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that ye may abound in hope, through the power of the Holy Ghost. [romans 15:13]

AMEN!:))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

fourth birthday cake!!

2008-03-21T18:00:00.003+08:00

HAHAHAHA i had my FOURTH birthday cake today!! had cg at kel's house today and it rocked man!!
it was games at first, a rather dirty one since you'll get a plate of flour smashed in your face for every question you answer wrongly, which i did but wisely evaded the flour attacks UNTIL SICKENING ANNOYING ROTI PRATA YIYUAN smashed a mountain of flour in my face when i had announced at least thrice that i had to remain clean since i had to pick my mom up from the airport. TANKS man. and i was wearing my contacts. made my eyes crazy pain and my lenses still had tiny particles of flour after repeated rubbing and rinsing.
ggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
and we're called to "love thy brother".
hahhahahah okay then there was the blind mice game from which i should have guessed would be their birthday surprise. seok actually made valerie catch me can! i felt so betrayed!! hahah but after i became the blind mice(mouse) and kicked at random stuff to catch the next blind mouse everyone directed me to seok and ta-daa there was seok with a cake the minute the blindfold went off! whoa. wowed over. then followed a session of affirmation which was WHOA. i don't know..so..uh...haiya it was just incredibly superbly sweet! shan't go into the details but yay THANK YALL HCCG, THOSE WORDS TRULY SPOKE VOLUMES TO THE HEART! *sobs from being too touched* hahaha and THANK YALL FOR GIVING ME SUCH AN UNFORGETTABLE *ahem, yiyuan* BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION *ahem, flour*!! yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i think i should have my birthdays set on 19th and 21st march in future!! what 20th march man! HAHAHHA. yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
ohohoh then i played this SUPREMELY RETARDED GAME with val, it was more than retarded!!!!!!! hahahah but it was crazy fun and we're having a SHOWDOWN tomorrow woohoooooo!!!!!!!!!

yayyyyyyyyy i'm HUNGRY!! again!! food!!!!!!!
OH and i MUST start studying for physics. haiyaaaaa........

anyway i think God wants me to have a spirit of thanksgiving, something He's been trying to tell me for the past three or so days. okayyy i shall step on it then!!!!!! psalm 136!!

here's a good teaching! somehow it coincides with pastor shirley's sermons! but then again coincidences are but God's way of remaining anonymous!:

Call Him by His Name

The Bible refers to God by many different names, and each one reveals a special aspect of His character or the relationship He desires to have with us. The names reveal His omnipotence, His favor, and His immeasurable love for us. They demonstrate the fact that God is everything to us; Our God, our Healer, our Provider, our Peacemaker, our Conqueror, and so much more. The names accentuate the fact that when we need Him, or when we want to express our love, adoration and worship towards Him, we can simply “call Him by His name” and He will respond or be right there. Listed below are several names we can use to call on or worship God:

Ø Elohim – The God of strength and power – emphasizes God’s omnipotence, power, sovereignty and ability to do whatsoever He wills. The Bibles says “Power belongth unto Elohim” (Psalms 62:11), “who by His strength setteth fast the mountains; being girded with power” (Psalms 65:6). “Our God is the in the heavens: He has done whatsoever he hath pleased” (Psalms 115:3), “for with God nothing shall be impossible” (Luke 1:37).

Ø Jehovah – The Lord and eternal God – emphasizes God’s eternal self-existence (having neither beginning of days nor end of life), as well as His moral attributes such as holiness, righteousness, love, mercy, grace, and justice. God told Moses, “I AM that I AM” (Exodus 3:14) meaning that He is the God who has always been, and who will always be. He is the eternal God.

Ø El Shaddai – The strong and almighty God – emphasizes God’s abundant sufficiency regardless of how hopeless the circumstances seem; and the capability to make us exceedingly fruitful. The Bible says that God “will supply all our needs in accordance with His riches in glory” (Philippians 4:19). He also states that we can “do all things in Christ Jesus who strengthens us” (Philippians 4:13).

Ø Adonai – The sovereign Lord – emphasizes God as the divine, legal Owner and Master of all things to include all human beings. He is our creator, preserver, and redeemer. 1 Cor 6:19, 20 states “For ye are bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body, and in your spirit, which are God’s.”

Ø Jehovah Jireh – The Lord will provide – emphasizes the fact that God has supplied all our needs. The bible states that “according as His divine power hath given us all things pertaining to life and godliness” (2 Peter 1:3). David realized this point. He stated “the Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want” (Psalms 23:1). God is our provider.

Ø Jehovah Repheka / Rophe – The Lord is a Healer – All healing comes from God, whether physical, emotional, mental or spiritual. God said in Exodus 15:26 “For I am the Lord that healeth thee.”

Each of the names of God represent a special part of who He is, and the uniqueness of His character. By understanding God and His character, and how He expresses His love through His names, we can deepen our fellowship with Him, discover our purpose in life, find security and peace in His presence, receive healing, and defeat Satan’s influences in our lives. In your time of prayer, praise and worship, or times of need “Call God by His name.” He will hear and respond to you.

Ø Jehovah Nissi – The Lord is our Banner – A banner is an emblem, such as a flag, by which an army or nation is known or identified. In the days of old, after conquest, an army planted its flag or banner over the land conquered as “a sign of conquest.” Moses used this name in Exodus 17:15-16 to declare that God would always conquer the enemies of His people.

Ø Jehovah M’Kaddesh – The Lord that Sanctifies – To sanctify means to set apart or separate for God’s specific purpose(s). God tells us to “Sanctify yourselves therefore, and be holy; for I am the Lord Your God” (Leviticus 20:7-8) meaning that we must submit and obey His Will so that He, through the blood of Jesus, can cleanse us from our sins, make us holy and set us apart for His holy purposes. Once we are sanctified, we can accomplish what God has called us to do.

Ø Jehovah Shalom – The Lord is our Peace – This is the peace we find in Psalms 91, in the secret place. In this place confidence comes from knowing that our battles are not our own but the Lord’s. It is the assurance that “all the promises of God in Him (Jesus) are yea, and in Him Amen” (2 Corinthians 1:20); and “no weapon formed against us shall prosper” (Isaiah 54:17). In the secret place God provides us His Shalom “the peace that surpasses all understanding.” Gideon recognized God as Jehovah Shalom in Judges Chapters 6 and 7. He had no reason to fear or worry because God assured him of divine protection and victory.

Ø Jehovah Shamah – The Lord is There (Here) – God said in Ezekiel 48:35 that the name of New Jerusalem would be “Jehovah Shamah” meaning that He would be there dwelling among them. It also means that God is here with us now. His Holy Spirit lives insides of every born again Christian. If we allow, He walks and talks with us leading and guiding us in every situation. God’s Word says that He is our “refuge and strength, He is our very present Help in times of trouble” (Psalms 46:1). He will never leave us nor forsake us (Hebrews 13:5).

Ø Jehovah Tsebaoth – The Lord of Hosts (God of Battles) – Our God is a mighty Warrior who has never lost a battle! He leads us in spiritual war against Satan and his angels. He has equipped us with truth, righteousness, His Word, faith, salvation and the Holy Spirit. And He tells us exactly how to stand against the strategies of the enemy. He counsels us on how to fight and how to win our victories. With Him we cannot lose! God said in Isaiah 31:5 “As birds flying, so will the Lord of Hosts defend Jerusalem (You and Me) defending also He will deliver it; passing over He will preserve it.” With God, the battle is already fought and the victory already won.

The names of God describe His awesome character; His great love for us; and His willingness to act on our behalf. We only need to know Him and understand that in our time of worship or need, we can simply “call Him by His name” and He will respond or be right there.

WHOAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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2008-03-21T01:00:00.002+08:00

smile wanchien, SMILE ohmygosh.

okay i shall pray THE prayer of power that has only THREE words: God, help me.

go away you sickening emo bug. I SHALL TRAMPLE ALL OVER YOU I TELL YOU.

away!! and be gone, oh ye of 3-bromo-4-chloro-N-methyl-N-propyl-pheylaminedonutmiaowecktchickennutbeef origin!!

"HAAAA-YAA!!!"

and off goes ITS miserable little buggy head!!

ho-hum.

oh such sweetness.

okay off i go to regain my sanity ha.

old maid. hmmph.

2008-03-20T22:50:00.002+08:00

yay so today's my birthday and it really was nice to wake up to birthday greetings on the phone, on top of the two from xiongwei and zhiyong last night. butbutbut after reading the first four i WENT BACK TO SLEEP. hahah. hmm...so today i'm officially 18, which, according to dingyi, gives me the legal right to buy beer and booze for him and according to audreychonggy makes it legal for me to marry. HA marry indeed, when i'm like an old maid ohmygosh!! that's super sad. had a terrific celebration yesterday, think it was God's way of making up for a rather empty today, save for the last three hours before it's not my birthday anymore.

i was officially awake at 1030 thereabout and dallied my time till 12. then i thought i'd spend my birthday with God, since there was no one at home. and it was funny how so many birthday smses came rolling in but none came from my dad. at all. my bro told me he left me some money on my desk to get myself a good meal but he didn't wish me happy birthday so i had to ask for it. mom's in hongkong. so i went to pray and i felt reallyreallyreally happy. God just filled my heart with song and joy and i was swimming in God's lovely presence. it was indescribably great. yeah that lasted the rest of the day till around 5pm, which i spent couching and stoning. on my birthday. by the time my dad got back i got so sick of this birthday. seriously. and it started welling up inside of me how much it sucked to have like so many friends screaming birthday greetings when my own family kinda thought it was just another one of 365 days in the year 2008. so there. the birthday smses kept coming in though, and they truly made things a whole lot better. BUT then my bro came back and ha it was the time of my extreme unhappiness so i didn't wanna talk at all, lest i end up shouting at everyone. he said i was putting up an attitude.
it has been sorta a family tradition to go out for dinner on someone's birthday and since mom's outta town we agreed on tomorrow. so my bro was shouting about the 'stinking attitude' i had when we had already agreed on dinner tomorrow with my mother. and there he was ranting away. yeah. don't talk=attitude. wow. great definition.
it's not about the dinner. not at all. and he doesn't see it. my dad doesn't see it. they both don't see it.
anyway i couldn't stand it at home anymore so i went out. for some air. for some life. and there was friendly company. (psst...thanks man.) and thank God for that. had a starbucks drink to cheer myself up but it was way too sweet. yuck. okay. oh and tim CALLED to wish me happy birthday on my way to starbucks. that was mighty timely. so needed it then. yay thank you. thank God for you.

okay i'm tired of emo-ing. it's disgusting.

i need to go find my physics notes.
and smell them at least.
yeah. and i need to pray.

i shall not emo.

thank you all for flooding me with so much love in those smses!! LOVE YALL LIKE CRAZY!! YALL ROCK!! thank God for all of you!! <33!!

i love 6G BIG TIME!!!!

2008-03-19T19:02:00.003+08:00

whoa today was seriously AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!! (not counting the math paper, that is) we had class lunch today at btp and i very reluctantly joined the class cus i thought i could use some sleep-catch-up. besides, i was sick and they were going to kfc hahah. but heck, thank God i went! i couldn't stand the temptation of the crispy, juicy, succulent and oh-so-finger-lickin' good pokpokgeh!!! kfc's pokpokgeh's the best man!! after that we went shopping at ntuc and bought apple crumble to share AT FIRST. then we walked and walked and walked and finally decided to pay for our stuff, wenqing and i had the marigold jelly but quite frankly i was waiting for the apple crumble hahah. but it was with shinq who was nowhere to be found for quite some time and when i finally saw it with zhanyi i asked to have it. he kept saying later. then i was quite sian. so i noticed this other box that i thought contained donuts that maybe maybe i could nip some but smart zhanyi kept saying later and i was wondering why i couldn't have the food hmmph. so i went to buy herbal tea, lagged around the piano shop and pet shop with the rest before kaimeng finally decided we should go to level 3 and go back to school. so we got in the lift and josiah started taking random videos. random, or so i thought. the lift door opened at level 3 and there was weiting and shinq with a big smile and an oreo cheesecake with the happy birthday sign on it!!! they walked into the lift and the song started and whoa i nearly cried, nearly nearly nearly but i didn't HA. ohmygosh it was the SWEETEST THING EVER. somehow i can't put the swelled emotions into words but it just hit the heart, i mean, like there's this funny tugging of the heartstrings or something. i don't know how to describe it...hmm i shall leave it at this then. THANK YOU 6G!! YALL ROCK AND I LOVE ALL OF YOU MAN!!! haiya but we didn't take a group photo there and then cus we took the lift to the carpark level and got chased by the security guard SIAN. hmmph annoying security guard. caused my precious, sacred moment of unspeakable, indescribable and wonderfully delightful surprise and joy to slip away just like that without so much(little, rather) as ONE picture to keep the memories alive and for me to show the world how blessed i am to have classmates such as these. GRRRR SECURITY GUARDDDDDDD.
oh ya did yall buy oreo cheesecake cus i asked some of you to buy and share?? HAHAH. THANKYOUXIEXIETERIMAKASIHGAMXIA everyone!!! it was easily and truly the greatest birthday surprise i've had in all my 17/18 years of life!! i didn't even anticipate or suspect anything when zhanyi said 'later later' cus all i wanted was something to keep my mouth busy hahah. you don't know how much this means man. you guys totally made my day( or dayS, rather, cus i'll store this memory in my not-so-big brain for as long as i can)!! 6G is THE LOVE man!!!!
oh and special thanks to weiting for that super sweet and ROMANTIC idea of waiting with the cake outside the lift, and to shinq and whoever remembered my birthday!! YAY I AM CRAZY HAPPY!!! i'm so happy i wouldn't even mind having a two hour lecture/tutorial with E.C follwed by _ _ _ _ _ la!! seriously!! HAHAHAHH.

OH then after that i went to j8 with jo and our beloved promiscuous girl(PG) and noticed a group of sn girls taking pics with oranges stuffed in their mouths hahah! jo cleverly observed that they were advertising or whatever for sunkist oranges and they get free juice and what-nots for just taking random pics SOSOSOOOO...WE WENT TOO!! hahah we purposely walked past those people with the sunkist tags and they simply approached us HAHAH. and asked if we'd like "free oranges just for taking pictures", of course, we gladly obliged!! and i think we were only supposed to take a slice each but heck when jo took his second slice, claiming to have "accidentally eaten" it the girl was like, " right...nice joke". hahahha i finished mine up and told her i ate it on purpose and took more!! they were super sweet and juicy and fresh and yummy!!! sunkist oranges rock!!!!! hahahah i shall post the pics once i get them from jo and meanwhile if anyone sees those retarded pics of us crunching on orange peels ohmygosh PLEASEPLEASEPLEASE let us know k!!!!!

now on to blocks. HAHAHA. blocks one is a JOKE i tell you. a complete joke. i laughed to myself at every paper since monday, laughing the hardest just now during math. laughing at the total ludicruity and absurdity of it all!! even einstein found chem to be of chem O standard!! but still i wanna thank God for having been so close to me this block test period - i was not only unprepared, i felt so relaxed even when i knew i was unprepared hahah. and i was shockingly at peace with myself all throughout! i've never felt this way before!! this is simply amazing HAHAH! everyone knows i'm easily stressed out by studies but this time it's a complete flip! and i didn't panic much when i had zero inspiration for gp, when i had only one paragraph for AQ when the invigilator said 'pens down', nor did i throw myself into a fluster when my script for econs was a set of black mess over paper whose content had nothing to do with econs at all(i seriously didn't know what to write!), or sink into depression after the killer chem paper that i left with at least 30 marks undone and most importantly i didn't feel painfully sorrowful when i stepped out of the room with the total marks of questions i ATTEMPTED for math not even sufficient for a pass HAHAH. but man it felt good. it felt GREAT actually, knowing that God is with me and in me to provide that unseen support, comfort and peace. this is the first examination i'm truly sitting for with God. this is also the first examination for which i'm gonna ACE, not for the subjects of course!!( hahah hope i don't get more than 2 U's) but in putting my faith and trust in God. yeah!!

okayy i shall continue thinking about how God has blessed me so abundantly with my wonderful class and keep grinning to myself HAHAH!! yay! rocks!! :))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

His love endures forever

2008-03-13T09:05:00.002+08:00

i've learnt that if you're spiritually dry, the best way to replenish that living water is to do more work for God, like bless His people or something. but i discovered yesterday that an even better way to be filled again, to bring back that thirst for God, is to give thanks. this echoes last week's sermon - give thanks to God in all circumstances, good or bad, high on faith or not...two or three days ago i was led to Psalms 136. i can't even begin to describe or explain how true those words are, they truly speak volumes.

Psalm 136

1O give thanks unto the LORD; for he is good: for his mercy endureth for ever.
2O give thanks unto the God of gods: for his mercy endureth for ever.
3O give thanks to the Lord of lords: for his mercy endureth for ever.
4To him who alone doeth great wonders: for his mercy endureth for ever.
5To him that by wisdom made the heavens: for his mercy endureth for ever.
6To him that stretched out the earth above the waters: for his mercy endureth for ever.
7To him that made great lights: for his mercy endureth for ever:
8The sun to rule by day: for his mercy endureth for ever:
9The moon and stars to rule by night: for his mercy endureth for ever.
10To him that smote Egypt in their firstborn: for his mercy endureth for ever:
11And brought out Israel from among them: for his mercy endureth for ever:
12With a strong hand, and with a stretched out arm: for his mercy endureth for ever.
13To him which divided the Red sea into parts: for his mercy endureth for ever:
14And made Israel to pass through the midst of it: for his mercy endureth for ever:
15But overthrew Pharaoh and his host in the Red sea: for his mercy endureth for ever.
16To him which led his people through the wilderness: for his mercy endureth for ever.
17To him which smote great kings: for his mercy endureth for ever:
18And slew famous kings: for his mercy endureth for ever:
19Sihon king of the Amorites: for his mercy endureth for ever:
20And Og the king of Bashan: for his mercy endureth for ever:
21And gave their land for an heritage: for his mercy endureth for ever:
22Even an heritage unto Israel his servant: for his mercy endureth for ever.
23Who remembered us in our low estate: for his mercy endureth for ever:
24And hath redeemed us from our enemies: for his mercy endureth for ever.
25Who giveth food to all flesh: for his mercy endureth for ever.
26O give thanks unto the God of heaven: for his mercy endureth for ever.

i'd like to share xiangyu's words of wisdom here as well, they ministered to me exceedingly well and are proof that God's Word, the Word of truth, sets us free. His Word is also the most effective and powerful weapon against the enemy's deceit. i quote:

"God will never shortchange you."

...

2008-03-12T22:07:00.003+08:00

God just pwned devil's head for 20938416298354125781-357`87234625-19348750`289518972560913456 gold!!

the faith factor: living by FAITH, not by sight.

“Through these he has given us his very great and precious promises, so that through them you may participate in the divine nature and escape the corruption in the world caused by evil desires.”- 2 Peter 1:4

i will be more than fine:) for His love endures forever and this love will see me SOAR.

PLAQUE OF HONOUR + DEATH NOTE

2008-03-10T18:41:00.003+08:00

THANK YOU JASON FOR SAVING MY POOR DARLING BLOGGY OHMYGOSH YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW GRATEFUL I AM TO YOU! i shall issue you a plaque of honour with your name, deed and date inscribed on it as a token of my deepest appreciation for your timely aid. you ROCKROCKROCK!!

DAMIAN YOU NOW HAVE THREE OPTIONS:
A) ENTER THE GAS CHAMBER WITH FRIENDLY ASSISTANCE FROM MY MEN IN BLACK
B) CHINESE DISMEMBERMENT BY HORSES IN MY BACKYARD
C) KILL YOURSELF IN A SUITABLY DIGNIFIED MANNER

last words to you: DIE IN PEACE (though i highly doubt the possibility of that coming true)

okay fine the damian part sounded really bad but i can't apologize since i'm not(nor will i ever be) sincerely sorry so i shall apologise to all my friends - i'm not usually like this ya know! HA.

anyway for those who don't know why i'm issuing this death note to damian, it's cus he fired 16 weapons of mass destruction at my darling bloggy by plastering _____'s face (please ask me personally) over my bloggy! i was MORTALLY HORRIFIED, BRUTALLY SHOCKED BEYOND WORDS AND PAINFULLY TRAUMATISED by the nauseating trash he threw in my face. OHMYGOSH. i think tingjun nearly fell off her chair and kicked herself to keep the screams of terror in when i told her to have a look at mutated, mutilated and mortified darling bloggy. sorry tingjun, i shouldn't have put you to the torture. for those who haven't seen it, the lot of you are blessed beyond words. seriously. at this point i'd like to quote jason: "funny, didn't think it was possible to make a worse looking _____" (or something like that) apologies for the misquotation but there's the point, jason summed it all up in one short, sweet sentence.

jason, thank you once again!
damian, if you find yourself being tailed by two dark men in black with heavy gold accessories and shiny polished boots, you'd best watch your back.

gosh i am just so kind at times.
why do i even bother warning people about the unavoidable.

how can i keep from singing Your praise

2008-03-08T22:08:00.003+08:00

"How Can I Keep From Singing"

There is an endless song
Echoes in my soul
I hear the music ring
And though the storms may come
I am holding on
To the rock I cling

How can I keep from singing Your praise
How can I ever say enough
How amazing is Your love
How can I keep from shouting Your name
I know I am loved by the King
And it makes my heart want to sing

I will lift my eyes
In the darkest night
For I know my Savior lives
And I will walk with You
Knowing You'll see me through
And sing the songs You give

I can sing in the troubled times
Sing when I win
I can sing when I lose my step
And fall down again
I can sing 'cause You pick me up
Sing 'cause You're there
I can sing 'cause You hear me, Lord
When I call to You in prayer
I can sing with my last breath
Sing for I know
That I'll sing with the angels
And the saints around the throne

service and worship today was so powerful. i'm sure God spoke personally into the hearts of others as He has to me. flooded with His spirit:) thank You Lord. i will look to You all of my days and i will follow You always Lord.

i know i am loved by the King, and it makes my heart wanna sing!

the joyful spirit!!:)))

OH and ben, don't be sad! go pray! i'll bet God has something in store for you! He loves you and so do all of us! smile!!:))

whew!!

2008-03-07T23:59:00.003+08:00

what a week this has been! i shall uh, 'begin' by recounting the happenings over the week backwards from today(or yesterday since it's past 12 now)! there was the release of A level results!! well the average hc smartypants like guirong, weixin, tracy, fungmin and like half of 06s6g and a whole lot scored straight As like nobody's business! and guirong! he aced physics when the cohort average for physics was so bad its stats wasn't even announced over the PA system!! CRAZY. oh and congrats to mingyi, damian. zhanyi, wenqing and liuhao on acing H1 chinese!!! GOOD JOB GUYS!!
then there was prayer meet!! it's truly encouraging to see so many other like-minded people around in school-people sincere in seeking God, loving Him and serving Him. somehow this community of God always helps to keep your spiritual fervour up when you're dry:)

YESTERDAY WAS AWESOME. DR ROSS ROCKS. since last year i'd been badgering him for the hc teddy that only the cts of c2 classes of 2007 and the graduating batch were entitled to. he was neither so he had none. i told him to rob/steal/whatever just pleasepleaseplease get me the bear!! from then till yesterday he'd say, "still working on it!" each time i meet him along the corridor or something. then yesterday, YESTERDAY(i mean thursday) he smsed mingyi and told danni whom he met along the corridor to get me to collect the teddy from him!! i was dumbfounded, totally stunned. i didn't really expect him to be able to obtain one and come on, which teacher you know of this life has been good and kind enough to keep such promises! it wasn't even a promise anyway! so i went to his desk and there he gave me a second teddy on top of the hc one, he said that he brought one from home in place of the hc teddy he didn't think he could get for me so i had TWO teddys!!!!!!! like double stunned!! speechless! thank God for dr ross! this tremendous blessing completely neutralised my not-exactly-pleasant day!

WEDNESDAY. wednesday wasn't too good heh. i was walking with mingyi and andrea to co room past the tennis courts. i saw this tennis ball rolling to my feet so i picked it up with my less-than-two-weeks-old cellphone in hand and yes. you guessed right. i threw the ball to the guy. three seconds after the ball was projected my cellphone did a projectile dive for the concrete/cement floor. ohmygosh. i picked up my poor darling. it was chipped at the edge. not just scratched or cracked but CHIPPED. CHIPPED. *cries* and all the tennis guys were laughing themselves silly. one even said, "omg that was damn retarded!" right. thanks. a lot.
i was so devastated i went to co room and ATE. yes i pigged. on egg rolls, multigrain, some crappy cheese snack and other trash. oh God i so need help in depression management.

since the start of this week God has put a question in my heart and i was rather troubled the next few days because i just couldn't find an answer. hahah but God is faithful! He gave me the answer! yeah its answering His own question i know but He's really taught me a lot as i prayed and asked! i have some work to do in this! [bear fruit! fruit of the spirit!]
OH reminds me!! i had my most INTERESTING qt with kelly on thursday!! we met outside lt5 thinking we'd read the bible a bit before praying but the lights weren't turned on so we went to the benches outside wushu room but the wushu people were there so we couldn't do qt in the only place with light around that area. so brilliant kelly cleverly thought that "we go toilet and read bible la! you one cubicle i one cubicle!" so we ended up sitting on the toilet bowl reading our bibles! surprisingly i learnt something in that condition!! yay goes to show how powerful God is!!
i love kelly! hahahhaha

oops just remembered another 'unforgettable' incident on wednesday hahahah. it was ct period and we were asked to fill up this form listing 3 strengths and weaknesses of yourself and a classmate. halfway through it liuhao piped, "orhhh!!! i know what wanchien's is! strength:physical. weakness:intellectual." HA. HA. thanks ah skinny chick. hahahhahah but it really was quite funny!! then there was the bantering couple of our class: lingyan and zhanyi. lingyan said that zhanyi's weakness was him being 'promiscuous'. everyone in the lt laughed their lungs out! even the cts did! and the best ending to this:
lingyan: huh! you don't know what it means?? HAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAH ZHANYI DOESNT KNOW WHAT PROMISCUOUS MEANS!!!!!!
zhanyi:*blushes terribly and buries his head in his hands on the desk and gives that feeble smile*
everyone else:HAHAHHAOHOHOHOHOHOHOHAHHAHAHAHAHHA(and the laughter continues for the next 5 mins)

OHOH and i went to witness calean's water bap with a few others from cg!! whoa its was truly an eyeopener, considering it was my first time ever to witness water bap. it was COOL. i took home a lot too, it kinda made me reflect a bit on my walk with God thus far.

TODAY. okayy here's the promised JUICY UPDATES ON DAMIAN'S INFATUATION WITH MINGYI. to mingyi: i'm sincerely sorry but you gotta believe me, you're not my target, it's damian. he issued me this weapon of mass destruction online. his fault. go kill him. to damian: this is totally for you. HA.
damian's facial muscles aren't activated by the ______(the biological term that means brain-controlled) neurones, they're activated by the sensory neurones. cus they react the minute the optical nerves catch sight of mingyi then *click* the cheeks automatically lift and form a smile. see, sensory neurones at work! this is why he's always smiling when mingyi 'happens' to be in his vicinity.
damian says he loves physics. i think he's lying. he doesn't smile at physics all the time.
damian is attempting to level up in niao-ing. he wants to be on the ready to jump to THEIR defence whenever lingyan/km/me/anybody else for that matter, niaos him about his preoccupation of mind.*winks*
p.s. mingyi don't be angry! i'm only out to get damian! hahhaahh

YAY it's officially saturday!!! saturday=service=joy in the house of the Lord=LOVE!!!

thank You God for walking me through this week, especially those few particular days when things haven't come at me at their best! couldn't have done it without You Lord!!

2008-03-02T00:54:00.002+08:00

Why should I feel discouraged,
why should the shadows come,
Why should my heart be lonely,
and long for heaven and home,
When Jesus is my portion?
My constant friend is He:
His eye is on the sparrow,
and I know He watches me;
His eye is on the sparrow,
and I know He watches me.

I sing because I’m happy,
I sing because I’m free,
For His eye is on the sparrow,
And I know He watches me.

"Let not your heart be troubled,"
His tender word I hear,
And resting on His goodness,
I lose my doubts and fears;
Though by the path He leadeth,
but one step I may see;
His eye is on the sparrow,
and I know He watches me;
His eye is on the sparrow,
and I know He watches me.

Whenever I am tempted,
whenever clouds arise,
When songs give place to sighing,
when hope within me dies,
I draw the closer to Him,
from care He sets me free;
His eye is on the sparrow,
and I know He watches me;
His eye is on the sparrow,
and I know He watches me.

thank you tracy!

STUFFED.

2008-03-01T00:38:00.002+08:00

whew...just got back from my cousin's 21st birthday celebration! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAN!!! love you truckloads man!! I AM SO STUFFED. REALLY. i apologise to all those who got there later than me, i simply loved the rendang chicken, fried crab claws, fried prawn thingy, chicken salad, more fried stuff, dessert and ohmygosh DURIAN!!!!!!!!! DURIAN IS LOVE MAN I TELL YA! havent had any in donkey years!! hahaha i seriously just "helped myself" (generously) to the food there! oh but i felt genuinely remorseful and guilty after my cousin's friends were still arriving two hours after i filled my stomach...and i'm reallyreallyreally full. really. i'm so full i could burst. yici once said that my stomach's a bottomless pit well now i'm telling her my stomach DOES have a bottom!! EUREKA!! oh then there was my cousin's little puppy that was constantly chasing its own tail. funny. why are dogs so fond of doing that? einstein enlighten me! this is such an interesting phenomenon...

oh and i think it's absolutely amazing how God places people in our lives to bless us, help us and brighten our days simply! i can name so many such people at once and still figure more to come! yay smileysmiley thank You God!! :))))))

einstein and the expandable marshmellow!!

2008-02-28T20:48:00.004+08:00

almost forgot to blog about the highlight of the day!! hahah i did physics prac with einstein and xiongfan ohmygosh super funny la!! i learnt a lot from their exchanges as well! BUT highlight was einstein and the expandable marshmellow mr chua gave us to play with. einstein very cleverly thought that by immersing the syringe containing the marshmellow in a beaker of hot water, the pressure in the syringe would increase and he'd have greater fun with the marshmellow and well being the not-so-scientifically inclined person i am i happily thought that this would be fun so we did just that hoho. after twenty minutes we got the syringe out and holymoly the marshmello melted and stuck to the bottom of the syringe!! it was this sick-looking mash of pink and white goo-EWW. hahahhah to think we forgot how we used to roast marshmellows and that this would happen!! hope mr chua doesn't find out heh!

random: my mom just smsed my bro. it read, " pa bought pok pok k" hahahahahhahahahha

funn!!

2008-02-28T17:38:00.003+08:00

i did my first cs for the year 2008 ystd!!! hahahha its seriously gotta be THE BEST cs session ever!! true it lasted twice as long as any other cs but heck i had a whopping good time there!(minus the bruise i sustained from i-can't-remember-where but from which i recovered with great aplomb seeing the crowd at cs ystd)we were made to pack goody bags for j3s i suppose, the teachers got us to form an assembly line/station kinda system where the boys go arnd with the bags and the girls just dump the stuff in! i was in charge of opening up the paper bags and boy was it fun! this girl from 6j and i stacked them up in pyramids and rambled on non-stop about how we were gonna put this experience in our resume hahah super fun!! we snagged some stuff too hoho(OOPS!) and halfway thru the cs the teacher told us to take a break and a drink. i only remarked casually that i didn't have a bottle when the teacher told me there were drinks. then i saw two cartons of bottled H-TWO-O. WHOA. wowed over. totally.

(goody bags that say "i'm a brightsparker, watch me shine!!")

oh and there was physics tutorial ystd! hahha sandra and i were well, kinda hungry(as usual) so i whipped out my life-saving GUMMIES!!! super yummy! but sandra dropped the pack and out fell two little gummies on the dirty and disgusting^infinity floor and she insisted on eating them still! ohmygosh crazy!! so to prevent her from that suicidal act i went to draw on the gummies with my pen hahhahahahah then we ended up drawing smileys on them and tadaah!!! our very proud masterpiece!!

(the appleys!!GUMMIESS!!!)

OH. i woke late last morning so i had no choice but to cab to school and ohmygosh the fare was UTTERLY ATROCIOUS can!! 16bucks!! i nearly died looking at the meter! and the annoying cabby went by steven rd, the longer route, along which we met with a terrible jam that made mr cabby so very happy. hmmph.

YAY!! papa got me the micro-sd card!! it was an ebay deal and we both were rather skeptical about it but it turned out fine!! hahah and my bro was scolding us for our distrust in online shopping...sorry la...country bumpkins first time online shop can!

yay and this kind ny-hc girl woke me up in the bus this morning, or i'd have slept WAY past hc!! thank God!! and thank her!!

2008-02-25T20:09:00.002+08:00

i have come to the conclusion that some part of me says "accidents, come find me". mingyi and i went to the tennis courts to watch the juniors at tennis and the tennis balls just came straight for me somehow. didn't know i was THIS attractive man. then there was maverick and his volleyball-turned-soccer ball which happily found its way to inches next to my face. so for the hour or so there i spent my time yowling in terror and trauma whenever those evil round things came near. aaaaaahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!

yay i think truly, God's grace is more than we'll ever need, more than we can ask for, more than enough. His grace has seen me thru dark and difficult moments and today was no exception. couldn't have gotten thru the day this well without it. thank You God!

met ryan on the bus today, he was seriously a godsend. his frank opinions, suggestions and encouragement has given me courage, motivation and this great sense of urgency to act on this pressing problem at hand. thank you ryan! i've learnt a tremendous lot today and i will work on it!!

sunday out, sunday ow.

2008-02-24T19:08:00.003+08:00

L:change the world was quite a letdown. dry on the climax, moderate on gore but humour was alright to me hah! pink angel crepe van!! but i still love L! he's super cute!

i slipped and slid down one third of the way down the escalator. OW. PAINNNNNNNNN!!!!!!! unglam man. well at least i didn't tumble down the escalator, i slid higgledy-piggledy down the grooved steps instead. people all around stared, some went "aiyoo!", maybe a few even sniggered but no one offered to help. singaporeans. what an unsympathetic bunch. tsk. now i can't move my right arm vigorously, i have trouble walking, my right ankle hurts and worst of all my bum hurts. for at least a week from tomorrow i'll have to sit on my left bum in lectures and tutorials. hmmph.

:))))))))

2008-02-23T22:07:00.002+08:00

PRAISE GOD!! WEELIC ENTERED OUR FAMILY OF GOD TODAY!!! ohmygosh i'm sososososososo happy!!!! thanks to God of course! to samuel too, who so kindly sat next to him to explain stuff during altar call! thanks wise ol' caveman!! yay!!!!!!!!!! :)))))))))))))))))))))))

svc today was great! harvest was great too! praise God! sermon was powerful as well, it spoke personally to many individuals today and yeah to me as well! (return of the prodigal son) received a few divine reminders which are just so timely! yay! smileysmiley!! oh and i must NOT niao liping! hahah sorry lips!! i'll protect you from anyone who niaos you in future on top of not niaoing you myself! hee!

i slept past my stop all the way to the interchange and this auntie nudged me sharply and went," dao liao lo! hai bu yao qi lai ah!" i grunted and shut my eyes again. then she shouted at me to wake up the next time and i was like chill man! but thank God for auntie! hahah or i'd be parked in the bus bay for the night! *shudders*

yay i'm watching L:change the world with QIUBX(your name comes before mich! sorry darling mich!!)mich and lingling tmr:))))))) yay i love qiubx!!!

off to shower!

This is what the LORD says: "Let not the wise man boast of his wisdom or the strong man boast of his strength or the rich man boast of his riches, but let him who boasts boast about this: that he understands and knows me, that I am the LORD, who exercises kindness, justice and righteousness on earth, for in these I delight," declares the LORD.(jeremiah 9:23-24)
mm just a thought: let us not boast about our achievements, in all things let's credit God who's deserving of all praise, cus He's the one who allows for ALL the good things in the world to happen! so yeah let's lift everything up to Him again!

how could i live without You...

blessings in counting

2008-02-22T22:54:00.000+08:00

YAY! i've finally gotten a blog!! like eons after the blog came into existence ha! special thanks to DAMIAN the com pro!! he did it up under five minutes that's crazy! he's seriously some genius, the next einstein or something. maybe he'll invent a teleport machine woohoo! then i won't have to carry on with the i-don't-know-how-many episodes of the "unglam acts of the bus-chasing LATEcoming queen" ha. thanks damian!

OH. we've been posted OUT OF SWIM PE!!!!! WOOHOOOO!!!!!!!!!!! one word: COOL.

i reached the bus stop at 6 this morn, thought i'd have at least ten minutes to have some time with God before prayer meet BUT the buses at the interchange weren't dispensed on time for some reason and the bus came only at 6.20!! i was SO ANNOYED. really. hmm but prayer meet wasn't over by the time i got there so yay!

received a super sweet sms from sharlene! again! yay i simply love her man! thank God for sharlene!

one confirmed visitor for ESS tmr! praaaaaayyyyy!!!!!

talked to florence today, learned a lot from her! love her too!

met dr. ross along my way outta sch today with his daughters hahah and he was like "still workin' on it!" cuz i asked him for the hc teddy since last year hah!

OH today's friday! yay! and i had my usual four hour nap-nice! i just love fridays! fridays just spell JOY, rest and relief. the weight of burdens chalked up over the week can more or less be put down a wee while. yes i know we can give them to Jesus, because He's promised to do so but well maybe at times we're just too preoccupied with the problems at hand and conveniently forget to turn to Jesus, which is a rather silly thing to do but we all do it one time or another anyway. HMM. i still have a long way to go in this! all the same fridays really rock, so do saturdays! saturday's another day of liberation!! partly cus i get to sleep in and i truly love it!) but mostly cus there's SERVICE!!! yay thank God for fridays and saturdays! then there's sunday. i don't really like sundays though hahah. cuz the next day's a monday and i really honestly sincerely terribly DISLIKE mondays!! haiiiyaa!!! oh but i remember once my friend asked, " does it matter how many days we have in a week, or what the days of the week are? so what if there were 12 days in a week or if everyday were fridays?" and the underlying message i thought of was that no day is a bad day when you put God in the way so i'm still trying to put God in my mondays especially, hahha, from flag-raising at high school side to the three periods of gp before co which ends at 7pm. hmm...

and i still have some issues to sort out... i can't afford to yield to my circumstances all the time and i'm sick of that happening because i do try not to. okayy i shall try again and this time my problems will know that my God pwns em' all! hohoho!!

thank you damian again!