Loved by the King...

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

ohmannnnnn. i need a phone. my new 6500s has been officially declared beyond repair. i gotta return cuzzie her phone, plus the non-colour phone i borrowed from another friend won't work anymore grrrrrrrrrr. i need a phone of my own. hmm. so all you out there DO TELL ME IF YOU HAVE A SECOND HAND PHONE FOR SALE!! or if you've any contacts for mobile phone deals!! yeap thanks!

I SHALL NOT EMO.

DADDY GOD COMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

He Knows My Name

I have a Maker
He formed my heart
Before even time began
My life was in his hands

He knows my name
He knows my every thought
He sees each tear that falls
and He hears me when I call

I have a Father
He calls me His own
He'll never leave me
No matter where I go

He knows my name
He knows my every thought
He sees each tear that falls
and He hears me when I call

dear Daddy come come come

OKAY i shall run into Daddy's arms away from the nonsense in my way!! RUUUUNNNNN! He loves me big time! HAHAHAHA

wc :: 11:54 PM

Sunday, April 20, 2008

hmm...

thought this would finally be a much needed period of rest and recovery for me but somehow God has more in store for me. okay God, i don't know what to do anymore but God, just let Your will unfold in my life again and do all things necessary for me to give up my own stubborn will to You. God if necessary, crush me and weaken me so much so that my human strength, uncompliant will, foolish pride and all things human, will run far far away and what's left of me is a beaten, flattened piece of roti prata. cus i know that it is only then that i can be made strong and good again in Your abounding love, that You can fill me with what i need to be an effective vessel of Yours. God, in all i say and all i do, may they be to honour You. may Your will be done in my life. in Jesus' name i lift up my soul, amen.

wc :: 11:39 PM

Saturday, April 19, 2008

I'M BACK!!!!!!

yay!!!!!!!!!!!! whewwwwwwwwwwwwwww. life's been EXTREMELY eventful:)) and God has been MORE THAN FAITHFUL!!!!!! ohmygosh i don't even know how to begin saying this but GOD IS AMAZINGWONDERFULAWESOME AND OH-SO-LOVELY!!!!!!!!! this trying period i've been put through has really shown me how real God is and just how much He loveloveloves me. He is FAITHFUL and will ever be, and truly, He will not give us beyond what we can bear. trust me when i say that man, or talk to me personally about this and let my experiences and encounters testify to God's greatness themselves:)

here's what God left me with:

"The Lord's will be done." (Acts 21:14)

8 Yet, O LORD, you are our Father.
We are the clay, you are the potter;
we are all the work of your hand. (Isaiah 64:8)

and guess what, after i shared this with the cg on thursday, this same thing was brought up at service today. how COOL is that huh. ohmygosh i'm totally wowed over. powerpowerpower. this is simply AMAZING. i am so in awe of God's greatness i'm at a loss for words ha.

plus, God has helped me to bear fruit-fruit of the spirit! today, especially, He's given me so much so much:
22But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23gentleness and self-control. (Gal 5:22-23)
yup, i received these fruit:)))))) ohmygosh thankYouthankYouthankYouthankYou God, words are not enough to express my feelings for You but i know You see my heart and You hear the unspoken:)

worship today was wonderful, the song brought a beautiful thought to my mind; one that i wanna claim and hold onto tightly -
...and through the storm,
yet i will praise You,
despite it all,
yet i will sing.
through good or bad,
yet i will worship,
You remain the same,
King of kings.
yes God, YET i will praise You, YET i will sing of my joy and delight in You, YET i will worship You all of my days, rain or shine. because God, i know that You are good, ALL THE TIME:))

yay kenny's a great joy to have in this cg!! thank you kenny! and thank God for you!! and thank you siahgor for those super encouraging and inspiring verses you shared with me just now, let's do great things for God!!

thank you also, LYNNIE!! and TTJ!! thank you two for your constant encouragement and affirmation all this while, really needed them. thank you two darlings for being such blessings!! i love you two!!

OH and thank you VACUUM CLEANER and FUNGMIN for your love, care, prayers and encouragement too, they meant and helped ALOTALOTALOT, i love you two darlings too!! <33!!!!!

yayyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!! off i go now! back to swimming in God's love!! yay swimswimswim!! :)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

wc :: 7:27 PM

Friday, April 11, 2008

yayy!! here's what i've learnt during this trying period:

"Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need." Hebrews 4:15-16

ask for God to provide for our needs, doing so with confidence and in faith, for He is merciful and abounding in love. therefore we have no need to stand in doubt of His promises, for if even for a split second we do not believe, this lack of faith spells a worthless prayer! as the Word says,
"If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer."Matthew 21:21-23

"...Do not grieve, for the joy of the LORD is your strength." Nehemiah 8:10c

seriously, grief is annoying. it's the devil's primary tool against the love of God in all of us - another one of its deceptions. it makes us weak and disillusioned, throwing us into the abyss of self-pity, self-reproach, even blaming God. God has promised that in His kingdom, "4He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away." His kingdom shall be one overflowing with "milk and honey"; goodness and wholesomeness:)) yay so let's press towards this day and destination, making "the joy of the LORD" our STRENGTH and shield against the enemy!! :))))

"That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong." 2 Corinthians 12:9-11

YESS!! so the verse in bold speaks for itself!! it is when we are weak that we are made strong again!! THANK YOU GOD!!! God sees all our weaknesses and inadequacies and He will nevernevernever give us more than we can bear!! with each weakness we are afflicted with, God makes His perfect love for us known by filling us with His strength so that we can carry on!! and if we think we can only see ONE set of footprints in the sand in times of trials and testing, we must know that it's cus we're riding on His shoulders through this period, and not that we're walking alone!! YAYY THANK YOU GOD FOR LIFTING ME UP!!!!!!!

yayyyy PW A!!!! hahah the whole class scored an A!!! but actually that's nothing big really, at least in hc hahah, considering how 98.2% of the cohort scored A...yay but great job 6G!! we have dr ross to thank!!!!!

thank God also for songjun, this wonderful brother who's been super encouraging in my time of need, THANK YOU VACUUM CLEANER!! YOU ROCK!!!

:)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

wc :: 10:57 PM

Monday, April 7, 2008

my favourite prayer: GOD, HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yay!! the past week has been pretty eventful - i went out with carolanne last friday and we had a jolly good time people-watching HAHAH, oh and PIGGING OUT too!! super funnnnnnn!!!!!! I LOVE CAROLANNE!!

then there was the dinner at meritus mandarin last saturday which i attended in a DRESS, yes, a D-R-E-S-S. and the girls in my cg had fun watching me squirm in it in agony! hahahah right, BRUDDER and TIANRUO?!

okayy then it was sunday all of a sudden and i was like, HUH, it's sunday already?! right so sunday came and went and i have no idea how. i can't even remember what i spent my sunday doing. and BOOM it's monday and i was booked for latecoming again. but i honestly wasn't late, at least the time i got on the bus wasn't. sickening 74. hahah but last sermon was about stress and dealing with it by adopting life-giving habits, how timely!! plus i'm having some problems here and there lately(well actually it's been some time) but YAY i'm walking with Jesus in this, so NO MATTER!!

ending off with my all-time favourite prayer once again: GOD, HELP ME!!!!!!! thank You!! in Jesus' name, AMEN!!

wc :: 7:47 PM

Thursday, April 3, 2008

“Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.”- Hebrews 12:2

Lord Jesus, i thank You for being all of the above:) Jehovah Jireh, i pray You'll grant me all that i need to walk with You daily, to live by Your word, to obey Your precepts, to love You and love Your people. El Shaddai i pray Lord, that You'll make me fruitful in this time as i seek You. Jehovah Shalom, i pray for Your peace to reign in me, Your unfathomable peace that i so need. Jehovah Shamah i know that You are ever with me, so Father i pray that i will be muchmuchmuch more aware of Your comforting and reassuring presence and that Your everlasting, unfailing and unchanging love will fill me, heal me, shield me and guide me. God i know that You see my heart, my weaknesses, my numerous flaws and imperfections and all the hidden aspects of my character i may have kept away from the world. and God i know, that in spite of all these, You still love me deeply. this is why i wanna work towards becoming the kind of person You have created me to be; to be a pleasing child, one whose life is a song of worship beautifully sung unto You. Father i live for You and You alone. i care not what the rest of the world may think of me, or what they see me as - a child sorely lacking in love and patience, a child whose aberrant ways and insufficiencies leave much room for improvement. these are undeniably traits of mine, i do admit. but Lord i trust that You will help me as i strive to be a muchmuchmuch better person. Father fill my heart with desire for You, let me thirst and hunger for You more than anything else. God i pray You'll help me fix my eyes on You, not on anybody else who, with their opinions and words may affect me in this spiritual race, for Lord, i wanna look to You all of my days, to cling onto Your words of truth rather than those of the people of this earth as well as those who are running this race with me. Lord Jesus i wanna be victorious as You have called me to be. develop, grow and perfect my faith, Author and Perfector of faith and love. let me come to know how to love as You have. In Jesus' mightymightypowerful name i claim all of these victories, AMEN!! :))))))))

wc :: 8:51 PM

Wednesday, April 2, 2008

yayyyy im so happy today!! cus i met ttj before and during co and we had a GREAT time chatting:)) then we went home together after co and talked some more hahah. yay i reallyreallyreally enjoy her company!! OH plus she reminded me that i'm losing a little of my joy these days and encouraged me a pretty good bit, thank you ttj for that timely and extremely necessary reminder!! i shall catch my joy back:)) and your encouragement..actually it was more of your presence and company, thank you for them all, let's work together k!! also, you may not realise but you've helped me unknowingly in my spiritual walk! XIEXIE! I LOVE YOU TTJ!!! <3!!!

as i was listening to the song "everyday" just now and the lyrics went "...everyday i'll follow after You..everyday i'll walk with You my Lord..". it suddenly dawned on me that i've failed to do so for some time now since the sermon was preached. the significance of my blog address was called to mind too - wwjd squared= Walk With Jesus Daily/What Would Jesus Do. this has passed in neglect of late too. i haven't really been walking my days with my Lord and i haven't considered what He would do in circumstances i face. as such i've been more or less walking alone because i've neglected and chose to ignore the Lord's presence and company, acting in manners that don't testify to His Ways of goodness. but thank You God for reminding me, for coming to my rescue once again. truly, "He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand."(Psalm 40:1-3) i will testify to the goodness and faithfulness of the Lord, to His unchanging, unending, unconditional and unfailing love:))))) thank You Abba Father, i love You!! <333!!!

hmm...in a reflective mood...yay!!

hahah OH i met kenny at the bus stop today!! had a nice chat with him, short as it may have been! hahahah ohmygosh i seriously hope that CERTAIN people in the cg won't influence this pure and good child of God with their habits and ways...*ahem* YY...*ahem* HAHHAHAH

yaaaay this captures, more than accurately, the sweetness and joy that floods my heart by the knowledge that i know this awesome God who created this universe and all in it!! sometimes i wonder how people are able to express so aptly and delicately the exact thoughts and feelings that i have about my lovely and loving Daddy, then i realised that it was this same Creator of the universe who created those collection of words in songs and poems!! how cool is that huh!!

I come to the garden alone
While the dew is still on the roses
And the voice I hear falling on my ear
The Son of God discloses.

And He walks with me,
and He talks with me,
And He tells me I am His own;
And the joy we share as we tarry there,
None other has ever known.

He speaks, and the sound of His voice,
Is so sweet the birds hush their singing,
And the melody that He gave to me
Within my heart is ringing.

And He walks with me,
and He talks with me,
And He tells me I am His own;
And the joy we share as we tarry there,
None other has ever known.

I’d stay in the garden with Him
Though the night around me be falling,
But He bids me go; through the voice of woe
His voice to me is calling.

And He walks with me,
and He talks with me,
And He tells me I am His own;
And the joy we share as we tarry there,
None other has ever known.

HAPPY!!!! heck blocks one and the results, they're really terrible but God i want JOY, not happiness, for JOY is EVERLASTING, happiness is but temporal! yay and God YOU are my source of JOY!!<33333!!!!!!!!

wc :: 8:45 PM

Tuesday, April 1, 2008

cg bbq at eileen's house last sunday was TERRRRIIIIIIIFIC!! eileen's mom's the hippest and coolest mommy ever!! hahah we all had a whopping great time! OH and i found a NEW AMBITION HAHAH!

anyway i think God's message to me these days is SPARKLING clear: seek His righteousness. i guess i totally need to work on that.
i feel God is really really kind to me. each time there's a lesson He wants me to learn, He makes it so obvious, and so available. i don't know how to describe it either but it's just like that. thank You God for recognising my weaknesses and flaws, and for being my perfect Teacher:))

tired. again. as usual.

wc :: 3:48 PM